Posted by mmcasey on June 12, 2003, at 11:32:41
In reply to Re: Do you think meds will help, posted by Maxime on June 12, 2003, at 10:41:13
I think that you are currently on the same regimen as me - Lamictal and Parnate. I'm surprised that you are having such severe side effects to the Lamictal. I don't really have any. But anyways, I know exactly how you feel about being alone. I have had the existential thoughts at times that everyone is really so completely alone and all that. And I have often felt like there just isn't anyone who can really help me, and that people can try but really nothing can help... or that people can try but in the end no one really cares because they all have their own lives to lead and can't be there for me 100%. This goes for psychiatrists, friends, family, therapists...
Although I do get quite agitated at times, I do not have what would be called mixed states. I am not bipolar, just plain depressed.
I also know exactly what you mean about dying by your own hand. I sort of think I will too, although I'm not totally sure. But even though I have never attempted suicide, I really think at times that I will sometime in the next year or two. I dont have exact plans, but I know that the suicidal thoughts/feelings/desire comes over me so much that it just seems so likely.
Well, I don't know if this is much help to you, but I do hope that things get at least slightly better for you soon. Hang in there, as obnoxious as that might sound.
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