Posted by Maxime on June 12, 2003, at 10:41:13
In reply to Re: Do you think meds will help, posted by pseudonym on June 12, 2003, at 0:58:29
The Parnate helps my depression big time - like nothing before it. But even when I was in the black hole of depression, I was never suicidal. I would become almost catatonic.
The mixed states however, I have been never lessened. It's during the mixed states that I am at my worse and most suicidal ... like right now.
The lamictal is making me dizzy and nauseous. I will try to continue with it (since I just started) but there have been other mood stabilisers that I have had to stop because of the dizziness. It makes me walk like a drunk.
I have already lost all my friends because they can't handle my mixed states and suicide attempts etc. In the end, I am all alone.
I already know that I am going to die at my own hands. It's really just a question of when and how. But it is something I have known since I was child - I am now 34. I have a strong feeling that it will be this year or next.
max
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