Posted by Krissy P on April 5, 2003, at 23:22:27
In reply to Evening blues » wcfrench, posted by Ritch on April 3, 2003, at 22:23:58
Hi, your Vegas trip would have certainly entertained me and I would have been rooting for ya! Good for you for "making" such a great time!
However, I know how you feel here. I wish this was the Psychological Babble board because I want to ask you something about this>> "then things seem to get worse as the day draws to a close (or it gets dark, I can't figure out if it just has to do with the night time)"
The same thing happens to me. I remember that when I was little, I always hated the dark so bad, and I always slept with a night light on, and yep I admit it, I still do at 32 sometimes. lol
BUT, May I ask if you think there are some sort of feelings assocuated with your mood and why the sadness comes on at night time? Not suggesting anything, by any means, just really wondering like home life at night when you were young? Bedtime when you were young, anything? I ask because I was a "latch key" kid many, many afternoons when my parents first got divorced and even 19 years later, the AFTERNOONS at times, depress me. I feel good in the AM and
pretty ok at PM, but by my own thinking, I think my "depression in the afternoon" may have something to do with these feelings that I experienced years ago.
Anyway, this is just a thought, I truly believe in my point I'm trying to make here, (probably because I studied psychology-go figure)and it sounds like you have a great doc-that's great.
I would be happy to share what meds I'm on -just let me know:0)
All the best,
Kristen
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Drastic change of subject- I just got back from a week in Vegas. I was dancing in the street literally with the music loud, usually by myself, and provided much entertainment for those around me. I even set up a quarter bucket outside the hotel and tried to sing for money, but I only made $1.25 because most people knew it was a joke. Most days were great.. the pattern seems to be a great daytime (100mg Lamic, 100mg Zoloft) then things seem to get worse as the day draws to a close (or it gets dark, I can't figure out if it just has to do with the night time).. 100mg Lamic, .5mg Klonopin afternoon/night. I altered it slightly by adding 50mg Zoloft in the afternoon and .5 Klonopin in the morning to try and "balance out" what I took in the morning and at night, and it seemed to help. But I still feel better in the morning/day than I do at night. The fearful depression returns, and I can't figure out how to get rid of it. I might try some mid-day meditation. The book "Meditation as Medicine" has been working wonders for me, literally. Any suggestions or related experiences with the day/night cycle? Moon?? Who knows. Just wondering if someone has experienced this. As my first doc said when I was on a complicated cocktail, "if you tell me you feel a certain way, I believe you and don't question why, since there are so many possibilities. We just work from there."
Take care,
Charlie
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