Psycho-Babble Medication | about biological treatments | Framed
This thread | Show all | Post follow-up | Start new thread | List of forums | Search | FAQ

Re: Cubbybear » LyndaK

Posted by cubbybear on February 7, 2003, at 3:34:02

In reply to Cubbybear, posted by LyndaK on February 7, 2003, at 2:56:05

> Hi Steve,
> Sounds like your hunch about the Aurorix making your depression worse may be right on. Seems odd that a drug in the same "family" (MAOI) would produce such opposite results. Hmm.
>
>Hi Lynda,
I'll give you an update on things. First, the Aurorix is technically not an MAOI, it's called a RIMA (reversible inhibitor of monamine oxidase). The MAOIs are *not* "reversible" and are therefore considered to be more potent, have greater side effects (but tolerable for me) and they necessitate diet restrictions. So although Aurorix is definitely not in the same catetgory as the SSRIs (Paxil, Zoloft, etc.) or the tricyclics, it's not quite the same as an MAOI like Parnate or Nardil. That difference probably meant all the difference in the world in screwing up my brain chemistry.

I don't recall if I mentioned it, but the worst thing is having to taper off a medication that you've come to regard as poison. I can't stop it cold turkey; I have to phase it down for 2 more weeks before I can stop it. And there's no way of knowing how much relief, if any I'll get when it's out of my system. I'd like to believe that what the other posters have said will apply to me, i.e.they felt better once they stopped it.

And I've been dealt yet another blow of sorts from the outside that has played havoc with my mental state. This concerns employment. It is too complicated a matter for me to discuss on this board, but in a nutshell, all us ESL teachers are wondering if the school will be renewing our contract for the new semester in May.

My current contract expires on Feb. 28, so I'm technically a free bird in March and April. I wasted no time in reserving a flight to Los Angeles for March 2 and will hopefully be in the drug store first thing the next day to pick up the Parnate. Then I'll have to wait 3-4 weeks till it kicks in. I'm due back in Bangkok about March 17 and will have to start searching for work. I can't tell you how terrified I've always been, thinking about being without steady, reliable income. Although teaching jobs are very easy to get here, I'm scared to death.

All I know is, this past week has seen my depression reach levels where I was nearly incapacitated--had to force myself out of bed and put my feet on the floor. Then the anxiety and fear of the future regarding employment hit me.

I was actually considering leaving Thailand for good--but after extremely painful considerations, I decided that going back to stay in the U.S, at this point would probably open up a deadlier can of worms. I'd be faced with the prospect of homelessness and joblessness straight off. This happened to me in an identical scenario in '97. So I came to the painful conclusion that I should return to Bangkok and put my faith in God and the Parnate and the job scene here (based on prior experience), and hopefully this nightmare will be over before long.

If anything gets in the way of my being able to pick up the Parnate in the U.S. I'm sunk. That's the only anti-depressant that has ever been my salvation.
If a few days should elapse when you don't hear from me, understand that I'm basically overwhelmed with the depression as well as trip-planning. But PLEASE feel free to post for me. I check the boards almost daily.
Steve


Share
Tweet  

Thread

 

Post a new follow-up

Your message only Include above post


Notify the administrators

They will then review this post with the posting guidelines in mind.

To contact them about something other than this post, please use this form instead.

 

Start a new thread

 
Google
dr-bob.org www
Search options and examples
[amazon] for
in

This thread | Show all | Post follow-up | Start new thread | FAQ
Psycho-Babble Medication | Framed

poster:cubbybear thread:137446
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20030204/msgs/139931.html