Posted by BarbaraCat on January 24, 2003, at 1:22:14
In reply to Re: If only it were just withdrawal » BarbaraCat, posted by oona on January 23, 2003, at 21:38:23
Thanks Girlfriend,
I had an appointment with a new therapist today, finally broke down and decided I needed more help coping than I wanted to burden my family or friends with. I've had soooo much therapy in the past and it has helped, however, my recent experiences have seemed so mechanical, due to the constraints of managed health care - oops your 20 minutes are up! I believe I'm in good hands with this woman.One thing that came through is that what I am going through has finally pushed me to my limits. I've always been able to manage, limp through, pull my head above water, go through the motions. But this time I was going down that long dark tunnel with no light. What doesn't kill us makes us stronger, so they say, but this has been killing me, snuffing out my life force, too hard. Time to get help. Time to demand my pdoc pay better attention to my plight, both mental and physical. I'm not sure if I want to pile on another med since they don't seem to be helping, so it's unclear what he can do. I'll let him put on his thinking cap cause I don't have any more steam to fight for my own advocacy.
How are you, Oona? I know you've been busy with other things and I truly hope they've been rewarding in a 'making us stronger' way. Proud of you for showing up for work. It's soooo tempting to just pull up the covers and hide from the world, isn't it? But it doesn't help and sure doesn't pay the bills. Thanks so much for your concern, it helps alot. I care about you too. And thanks for your email address. Just might take you up on it. Barbara
> Baarbara,
> Any words I say I feel can not start to touch the pain you are going through now. I can only say my prayers and thoughts are with you and just know that with each ending there is a new beginning. It sounds so trite, but I know it is true. I am so sorry you are losing your home, I hope you can find a place of solace to go to.
> I am sorry I did not realize how much you have endured. I have been away from the board for awhile and have been just trying to keep my head above water and managing to get to work everyday.
> Please feel free to contact me if you need another ear. I am pbdough@plateautel.net.
> peace
> oona
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