Posted by proud mary on January 23, 2003, at 13:03:38
In reply to If only it were just withdrawal » oona, posted by BarbaraCat on January 22, 2003, at 13:40:06
It is so difficult, I'm finding. I am actually starting to long for my zoloft, poopout and all. I don't think the Lexapro is working for me and I detailed what's going on in another posting but I'm still so confused about this message board thing, I'm not sure where it ended up. The bottom line is, after 13 days, I feel like I'm getting a bit WORSE, not better. What do ya'll think?
I wish I felt like I could go the natural route and try to cope with meditation, massage, excersize and good eating habits. But I can't even get myself to walk the dog. I must say, though, you guys have given me new thoughts and insights into taking these chemicals. However, I also know you understand what it can be like without the chemical help.
I do need avice about the Lexapro, though. I am getting super crabby in the afternoons, so much so that I am horribly hard on the kids. That is the main thing that bothers me, that and the unsettled feeling that seems to get worse and worse as the evening goes on. .5 mg. of klonopin doesn't seem to do the job anymore...I'm taking 1 mg and getting some relief, but it bugs me that I am so unsettled.
I just want to feel GOOD. I've always been a fairly upbeat person and I realize that not everyone needs to be *HAPPY HAPPY* at all times, but this unsettled crankiness is horrible.
I am thinking about calling the pdoc today and complaining, but I'm not sure I've given the Lex a real chance to work. Plus things have been more stressful than usual because the kids have been sick and I've missed work and my husband's been out of town...and on and on....ugh.
One odd thought, though...doing housework seems to sooth me. Weird, huh? It as if I just want to hole up in my house and do dishes, vaccuum, dust, etc...are ya'll now thinking that I REALLY have a problem?
Barbara, I'm sorry about your mom. I know how that feels because my dad died unexpectedly 11 years ago and then about three years ago, my oldest brother (50) and caretaker of the family died TOTALLY unexpectedly overseas where he lived and worked. I thought I took the whole situation very well at the time, but sometimes I find the unfairness of it all sneaking in and making me angry. Unresolved grief? Not enough drugs? I just don't know. Really, I shouldn't complain because everything in my life is pretty damn good...I just have this little mood problem....
thanks for the support.....I REALLY do appreciate it!