Posted by Kristi on May 18, 2001, at 19:24:22
In reply to Re: Anyone? » Kristi, posted by JahL on May 18, 2001, at 18:21:34
J,
First off.... thanks for your response. You have this witiness(that spelling looks off) about you that I admire.
I love your little smiley when I said I've been doing better with therapy and odd balls ways. Been there?
And yes... that is the worst part.... I do have the ambition to do things.... but I can't seem to get off my butt and do them! I mean, I still work, but as far as anything beyond.....
I guess my problem could be as a result of unresolved depression. Quick self assesment of me. I lost my mom to suicide last year... depression definately runs in my family. And oh yes.... was very depressed over that. First think I did was see a pdoc. That's when I started getting prescribed AD's. They all seem to take away much of the little things I enjoy so much... ie.. sleeping(ha ha), energy, feeling "healthy"... I mean that as far as naseau and constipation, etc. So I went off those. They didn't really seem to help me tho anyway. All I really noticed(tried 4) were the side effects.
As far as stimulants.... haven't tried. I guess I am terrified of taking the chance because of certain risks. Are there any stimulants that you don't have to take religiously every day? I'm afraid of that every day thing.. for reasons I'm not totally sure of but have an idea. My brothers are both street drug users... and I've seen them slowly go downhill.. and my mother, god rest her soul, was on Ad's.... sister on prozac.. and she seems happy... but not really "her"... I guess it could be seeing what drugs do to the people closest to my heart that brings on this fear.
I do see a psychologist twice a week. Major help there.
I guess I really have never been given an official dx. I guess the pdoc was pretty much assuming I was depressed... hence the ad's. But they seemed to worsen that.
I'm very lucky in the way that I have many friends.... people are always telling me I smile to much.... :-) But I really do like "life." Granted, on some days I'm sure I'll feel the opposite, but in general.
I just can't get out of this slump that I am so Tired. I hear alot about chronic fatigue syndrome. I guess that could be a logical conclusion... but i'm again afraid that will mean drugs with horrible side effects for life. Anyway, there is the jist. Thanks for responding. :-) Kristi
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