Posted by Rach on June 24, 2000, at 21:47:35
In reply to Re: Hold on, Rach, posted by Todd on June 17, 2000, at 11:18:31
> Rachel, you are BEAUTIFUL. Your warmth and compassion just radiate from your post and you really move me. Your have such an wonderful talent for expressing yourself; your words are like brushstrokes and your emotions the subject. What an incredible work of art! You are SO in touch with your emotions right now, and it's exactly where you need to be. I agree and disagree with Claire - it really isn't your fault, you didn't do anything wrong. But like you acknowledged, you did bring yourself here: PRECISELY here to this point in your life. You did this so that you can heal yourself.
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> You are staring up at that dam, cracks and fissures letting the water start to spring out, wondering how it's all going to hold. You might imagine a seething, malevolent torrent pushing against the other side, the side you can't see. But it has been your courage and strength that has brought you here, so close to this psychic hulk of stone and concrete in your life. Most people don't even know they have dams to inspect, let alone gather the willpower to bring themselves face to face with them. You are a strong soul, and you wouldn't have brought yourself here if you didn't have what it takes to start working on that dam.
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> You'll make it through your exams, and you'll be fine. Grit your teeth and keep pushing. One of the reasons that dam seems so imposing is because of the added pressure your exams are giving you. When they're over, you can breathe and give yourself the rest you need to collect yourself. The dam isn't going to break, Rach. You are the one who put it there a long, long time ago. And if you want it to stand a while longer, it will. Guaranteed. I've been there. But as you start inspecting it and checking it out, I am sure you are going to realize that the dam hasn't been serving you very well lately. It once worked wonderfully, and served to make your life run smoothly. But it has served its purpose. The time has come to really inspect it and find out if that dam really serves you well anymore. You know that; I can sense it. Beautiful rivers are meant to FLOW. You're already flowing; flow on!
> We're all here to give you support.
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> Peace and Love,
> ToddDearest Todd,
Your post to me was magical. I have said it so many times already, but I know I cannot say it enough. THANK YOU, from the depths of my soul. It was an extremely emotional and stressful time because I wanted to regain the strength and courage to be that flowing river, but I knew that I would never survive my exams if I let go too soon. Holding onto that pressure behind the cracking walls was so draining and depressive. Your post gave me the will and power to get through my exams, and not to fear breaking down the dam.
Thank you. Your post was eloquent and moving, you induced tears for your support, your belief in me, and your soul shining from your words. Thank you.
I wish you peace also (and never worry about becoming a beer commercial!!)
Love Rach
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