Posted by Noa on May 30, 2000, at 14:20:32
In reply to Re: SUICIDE - to Kathy, posted by Kath on May 30, 2000, at 10:05:53
Kathy,
I was away from computers most of the weekend, so I come to this discussion late. I was working my way up from the bottom of the web site, so, please forgive the ignorance inherent in my response to threads later on this page--I did not know you were suicidal, or in therapy, etc.
I agree with Harry. You are right, Kathy, about not wanting to have to be strong right now. You need support and safety, so you can let go a bit, within the safety of the hospital environment. You are really in a scary place right now, with such active suicidal thinking, and such despair. The hospital would be a good strategy just until you can be in a more stable safer state of mind.
Please, call your therapist right away, and if you cannot reach him or her, go to the emergency room.
Depression can be such a powerful thing, invading the way we think. Right now, you are so bereft that your ability to see yourself through all of this is constricted, not as flexible as your normal thinking ability is. That is why putting yourself in the hands of others to keep yourself safe is a good strategy.
I speak from my own experience. I have been in that suicidal despair many times. I am glad to still be here now, glad that I did not go the route of suicide. But I needed others to help me through it.
poster:Noa
thread:35034
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