Posted by brian on May 29, 2000, at 0:24:39
In reply to SUICIDE, posted by kathy on May 29, 2000, at 0:11:52
> > Hi jeri and thankyou for caring and replying. The moment I read your reply I started crying because it is the first time that in my loneliness someone whom I absolutely don't know has cared to communicate a word to me. you know my story is long but Iam going to my therapy sessions once a week but this weekened I have just broken down. Iam young and pretty they tell me and I have so much to look forward to, but why is it that my marriage has made me lose my self worth or maybe I always was this weak or else I wouldn't let a MAN break me in to pieces. I don't know how to hang in there. I had totally trusted the fact that my husband is never going to leave knowing that I have no one here. I really wish I had a friend who could relate. I have never been in a chat room before and this feels very weird. I feel as though someone shall recognize me in this chat room but then again who cares. I listen to insperational tapes (tony Robins), I tried meditation, running, working , writting my feelings, exercising,going out,trying to focus on good things but now none of that works anymore when I think of all my belongings and my whole life is being split and nothing hurts more than when a man says he doesn't love y0u anymore. I feel betrayed, abandened, and not loved. My parents don't even care so much because everyone says if I were a good wife then why is he leaving and so on. I have tried to write to stop the suicide attemps but I just can't fight it anymore. you know Iam just tired of trying to be strong. I just want to relax and be weak if I want to without anyone jugding me. You say to take it day by day but a day for me right now is full of lonely thoughts especially that this is a long weekened and it has been hard. Iam really embaressed to even right these feelings. Thank you for praying for me jeri. I need it with all my soul....
Then allow yourself to relax. Allow yourself to be weak. You have the right to grieve without adding the pressure of what others think of you. Breaking up is HARD. Nobody (with feelings) that has gone through a breakup would say otherwise.
Be weak for awhile. Indulge yourself in things that make YOU happy. I hate that breakups are hurtful. I'm sorry to hear that you are hurt.
Now I'll tell you the most overstated post breakup piece of advice, which also happens to be one hundred percent TRUE. With time, you'll get better. But be sure to take care of yourself in the meantime. And please make sure that you're around to enjoy that first day you awake, and realize joy in your heart again.
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