Posted by Cynthia M on May 12, 2000, at 10:07:48
In reply to Re: Rage and Cutting, posted by Noa on May 12, 2000, at 8:20:13
Some clarification- the counsellor that i saw yesterday was a crisis nurse. i had never seen her before. She had gone to talk with the pdoc regarding a possible change in meds and that is when her co-workers began the discussion in the hall. The day before my daughter and i saw my therapist whom i have been seeing since August and felt that i had a good relationship with. We talked together with my daughter and when she ( my daughter) started becoming acusatory my therapist asked me to step out. i did (boy that was hard) then i came back in but felt as though i had lost the only person who was on my side ( my therapist) So Now , my daughter is going to see my therapist separately and i will not be going back to the crisis nurse because that "team" seems to be so horribly insensitive. i see my therapist this morning and will discuss where we go from here and how i felt about that session. My older son is seeing the pdoc this am for evaluation of BP andi guess i can pretend that i am just fine and not still raging ( which , sigh,i am ) Also, It gets better, We have been on the Medicaid program here and just got a notice yesterday that we willhave "SHARE OF COST" OF $339.00 a month. ( we have 9 kids and my husbands gross income last moth was 2300.00. So as of June 1st i won't be able to afford any counselling or doc appts. or meds. Did i also mention that we signed bankruptcy papers this week? And last week got a notice of an investigaton of welfare fraud. Totally unfounded and i know precipitated by a person whom i had an affair with and he was pissed because i chose my husband and he got stuck with his wife and now he is retaliating. i am at a loss. So now i am trying to figure out how to live without any support system here and no meds. Oh, one good thing is that we just found out yesterday that my daughter is hypo-thyroid. maybe that will accountfor some of her depression. i have four daughters, If this is typical i don't think i will be able to survive. i guess from know on when i cut i just don't tell anyone and deal with it by myself so no one thinks i am just "trying to get attention" i am at a loss. i trust no one that i was supposed to be trusting all this time. today's counselling session should be interesting since i am getting increasingly angry. what now?
poster:Cynthia M
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