Posted by juniper on January 6, 2000, at 1:55:52
In reply to Re: my particular obsession (longish), posted by Noa on January 5, 2000, at 19:49:33
though i do not like to admit it, i do have problems with this sort of thing. i've always been sensitive to rejection, while trying to pretend that i am not....i think many have the impression that i do not care if they like me or not, one of those walls i've built.
i think somewhere i came up with that if EVERYONE liked me, then i really couldn't be that bad.on a related note, a few years ago when i was very severely depressed, i had an odd reaction to love, be it friendly, romantic, or familial. though i knew (rationally) that i had people who loved me, i simply couldn't feel, or understand, it. messages from my head lost their way to my heart. i am sure that i couldn't feel love because of the problems i had with self-esteem, not that this made it a speck easier......anyone else ever have this feeling?
peace to all.
juniper
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