Posted by Bob on September 29, 1999, at 23:20:02
In reply to Re: Pedophiles and curiosity..., posted by Dee on September 29, 1999, at 21:52:00
> For this reason, I am not jumping into anything any more - if I get into a relationship or connect intimately with anybody, I take some time to make sure that I am doing it for the right reasons: that the person is right for me, and not just a quick fix for acute depression. That way neither one of us will get hurt.
Dee, you're not a teacher, are you? [Boyle's Law of Education: A teacher loves best the sound of his or her own voice. -- I like to quote myself, too ;^]
One of my greatest fears right now is that I did sort of the opposite. I got into my current relationship at the height of a manic reaction to zoloft. It was the first time in my life I had ever felt *good* ... I thought I had been cured, and I wanted to start as normal a life as I could right away. I went off zoloft a month or so later, crashed thru the floor a month after that, and now I'm back in this miasma of non-feeling. We go from moment to moment, and I think that I *should* be in love with her, but I look inside and hardly see a spark.
So, is it that I really never loved her, or am I just incapable of loving that way right now?
I dunno,
Bob
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