Posted by roo on September 13, 1999, at 7:57:05
In reply to Re: Depression and Relationships, posted by Barb on September 11, 1999, at 10:08:22
Barb,
Thanks for your caring response, and also thanks
for making me smile ("You call THAT Beaver Cleaverish?
Honey...")It's only been in the past year or so I've admitted
it was a big deal...before I always felt like I
was feeling sorry for myself if I thought about it
or made something out of it. So it's been gratifying/
validating in a way to hear of other's perception
of the whole thing. My therapist agreed that I probably
experience PTS as a result.I guess the saddest thing for me is that I find it
so hard to feel loved and cared for, and that I can't
seem to feel ok about any of my feelings, they all
seem "wrong"--especially anger and depression--I always
feel like I'm going to be left/abandoned if I let it
all hang out.
Maybe in my 3 year old mind I blamed myself for waht
happened and thought I was left because I was angry
and sad all the time. I don't know.I hope healing can occur. I fear I'll never be able
to be in a happy romantic relationship b/c of all
my depression. Thanks again for writing, Barb.
poster:roo
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