Posted by Emily Silverman on April 21, 1999, at 10:40:46
In reply to celexa didn't work for me as well a prozac, posted by learn to forget on April 8, 1999, at 14:39:21
> I switched to celexa from prozac because of hand tremor that interferes with playing music. My hands stopped shaking by about 75%, but you know what, celexa just isn't as good against the terrible triangel of anger, fear and saddness.
> So now I'm back where I started: playing well or being well. I did learn one thing, however. I now know hell is not the absence of free-will is some burning pit, rather its having free will to choose between heinous options. >Hello, Learn-To-Forget,
Thanks for your interesting post. Sorry you're feeling so dreadful. How is your playing going? What do you play, et cetera? I play the piano, and I experienced severe hand tremors as well. At the time, I plugged along, swallowing all of my pills religiously, because I was fresh from the hospital, and terrified of having to return. The muscular problems disappeared after three arduous months. Your words about hell caught my attention, being quite interested in hell myself. Before I became irredeemably ill, I subscribed religiously to John Milton's idea about Man's existence being what he made of it; a heaven or a hell. Since then, having had too many psychotic and catatonic periods, I have decided that in my own realm of experience hell is being conscious and alive (psychotic) or unconscious and dead (drugged) and that heaven or anything like it is very nearly unattainable. However, I also believe that anything that can be conceived of can also be attained, even if for only a moment, and I retain the perhaps juvenile idea that there is a magical alchemical substance in the universe that will give me the lucid, untortured, calm consciousness with which I was born. Oh dear, how depressing...and I only wanted to say something to maybe make you feel better!
poster:Emily Silverman
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