Posted by Nancy on December 13, 1998, at 16:57:22
In reply to Re: back to the original question, posted by MrZest on December 8, 1998, at 11:24:30
> > I am just not interested in debating whose illness is
> > the worst.Read again. There is no debate about severity of illness. Unipolar Depression and Manic Depression are both different and disasterous. Neither of these diseases do I regard trivial. Also, Janey's suffering, like others, is real and not to be taken lightly! I did not wish to minimize anyone's tragedy!
Read it all again very carefully. The problem is with the misconception that many people have. That is, they are ABLE and FUNCTIONING, because "THEY HAVE TO BE" or "CHOOSE TO BE". My anger with careless dogmatic declarations of this DELUSION is reasonable and justified. It was very well stated in your description of those infamous "bootstraps". Bravo.
My losses are inconsequential. I'd gladly give it all to be well and capable again. I have no problem handling success. It's easy for me to achieve many fruits of my labor. You could say that I'm as driven to succeed when I'm well, as I am debilitated when I'm having a severe bipolar episode.
The only fact that remains is, I just don't handle loss of complete control over my life very well in the face of anyone telling ME that I should be ABLE just by WANTING to be. It's a senseless thing to say.
Finally, my recent thoughts on the subjet are that this was NOT what Janey intended to say. That is, I don't believe that Janey was saying that we can make our chemical imbalance less severe by deciding such. I think that via perception through my illness, that this is what I extracted from her post. Also, thank you, MrZest, for letting me know that after my last entry, there was still some lack of clarity regarding this situation.
The Mad Scientist,
Nancy
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