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Posted by baseball55 on May 8, 2015, at 20:39:07
I have been okay for over three years and stopped parnate two years ago, maybe more. But over the past several weeks, I have been falling into this deep depression, so deep I feel tormented by thoughts of suicide and can't see how I can possibly go on.
I am lost here. I no longer have a therapist. I see a p-doc once ever three months or so. I saw him last week and went back on parnate. We'll see how that goes.
I don't know where to turn. I don't feel I can talk to friends about this, because I am in too much distress. I don't want to burden my daughter. I am recently divorced and can't talk to (not that I ever could talk to) my ex-husband.
What do I do? I feel totally cut off and without help.
Posted by alexandra_k on May 8, 2015, at 21:44:00
In reply to depressed again, posted by baseball55 on May 8, 2015, at 20:39:07
(((Baseball)))
I'm sorry to hear you aren't feeling so good.
Can you find a new therapist? I know it can feel like it is too hard to look for one, when you aren't feeling so good. I'm sorry I can't do much from here to try and cheer you up :-( If you want to post a rant about stuff, maybe that would help? I don't know. Sending you good vibes, at any rate.
Posted by Tomatheus on May 8, 2015, at 23:26:17
In reply to depressed again, posted by baseball55 on May 8, 2015, at 20:39:07
I too am sorry to hear that you've been feeling depressed, Baseball55. As Alexandra_k suggested, finding a new therapist at this point seems like it would be a good idea, especially given the nature of the thoughts that you've been having recently. Hopefully the Parnate that you're taking will also help some, and I think it's likely that it will, given that I think I recall you saying that it's helped you before. If you can't get in to see a therapist soon, perhaps attending support group meetings for people with mood disorders might help to connect you with some others with mood disorders who will listen to you and offer support and understanding. In fact, attending some support group meetings might be a good thing to do even if you can get in to see a therapist soon, because it will give you an opportunity to build the kind of support network that you don't seem to have there for you right now.
Remember also that depression also oftentimes seems to distort the thoughts of the person going through an episode. Some find it helpful to challenge any negative thoughts that they might have and to at least try to find some positive aspects of any negative events that might be occurring. I know that going through depressive phases isn't so much a positive thing in itself, but remember that you've come out of some deep depressive periods already, presumably with the help of therapy and medication. So, perhaps looking at your past successes at getting through periods of depression might be something that you can hold onto and might also be a source of hope that you'll make it through this bout of depression.
All in all, it sounds like you've taken a good first step in getting back on Parnate, and I think that at this point it would serve you well to take things a little further and surround yourself with individuals who will stand to improve your psychological well being. You don't necessarily have to listen to everything I've written here if you don't find it helpful, but if there's one thing that I think you need right now, it's support from individuals looking to help lift you up.
I hope that you'll find yourself feeling better -- or at least feeling understood -- before too long.
Tomatheus
Posted by rjlockhart37 on May 9, 2015, at 1:58:21
In reply to depressed again, posted by baseball55 on May 8, 2015, at 20:39:07
(hug)
maybe see your pdoc more? add .... i admit, there are times when i feel like ... just not wanting to be here, and .. anyways, i know there must be sometihng that is really making you depressed, the one thing that i do every night is music, i always listen to music to feel....like the emotion of the song and then relate it to myself, the rytham, the feel of it, and what i do is use the music, and just think of a new beat, both to express how i feel and also what is going to happen next that im going to do.....
people always told me to write what feeling, but i use music to "feel" the vibration of the emotions inside and then use it for a new feeling of getting better......
but....
i have something that is really silly, but it may be funny...quack quack cheer er uppers lol
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6-j8D_nwaFs
Posted by ClearSkies on May 9, 2015, at 13:12:45
In reply to depressed again, posted by baseball55 on May 8, 2015, at 20:39:07
So sorry that depression has returned. I agree that finding a therapist might help to pull you through this period. I know what it feels like to not have someone to talk to about it.
If you can, try to put your body into some sunshine. You don't have to do anything once you're there. It helped me a bit.Remember we are here to listen to you.
CS
Posted by baseball55 on May 12, 2015, at 19:57:14
In reply to Re: depressed again, posted by ClearSkies on May 9, 2015, at 13:12:45
I saw my p-doc and he called my old therapist. she moved a ways away and, given the distance, we had decided to stop seeing one another. but my p-doc kept saying, it's only a --hour drive, you could go there once a week or two. So he called her and she called me, and I went to see her even though it involved 3 hours in the car and I felt better after seeing her. so I'm going to try to see her every 2 weeks now that school is done.
The parnate is dong major things to my brain. For better or worse, I can't tell yet. When I took it years before, it worked quickly.
Thanks for all your support.
Posted by alexandra_k on May 16, 2015, at 4:05:40
In reply to Re: depressed again, posted by baseball55 on May 12, 2015, at 19:57:14
glad to hear you are keeping on.
not sure what to say, sorry.
Posted by Angela2 on May 30, 2015, at 13:19:05
In reply to Re: depressed again, posted by baseball55 on May 12, 2015, at 19:57:14
Hope you're feeling better Baseball. How are you doing?
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