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Posted by SandyWeb on March 29, 2004, at 19:55:48
In reply to Re: Sandy » SandyWeb, posted by Fallen4myT on March 29, 2004, at 19:42:46
Hi ya!
Whatcha wearing? LOL!! I'm still in my pants and top, but I'll snuggle into my jamies once my daughter gets out of the washroom.
Yes, I absolutely love my kids. *smile* I tried to protect my son from hubby, but it didn't always work. I kept hoping he would stop. But once it started with my daughter, it was time to leave. And God opened every door and every window for us, and away we went. And when we got here, the courts gave me SOLE custody because of the things hubby would do. And the courts even gave Nova Scotia jurisdiction, rather than California, because they wanted all matters pertaining to us to be handled HERE. And the judge even told them that once the paperwork was completed, they could even bring it to his house for him to sign. And hubby is not allowed around the kids.
See, I rambled again!! But yes, I love my kids!! Carly is 12 and Ben is 15. They were 2 and 5 when we left. But amazingly enough, I've only aged...hhhhmmmmm....about 3 years since then. Isn't that incredible! ha ha ha
What type of pets do you have? We have a kitty named Cabby. We got him at the vet's. Someobdy left him, as a kitten, in a box overnight on the vet's steps during a winter storm. It's amazing that he lived. And nobody would adopt him because he has a bit of a disability with his hind quarters....he can't jump very well. People want perfect pets, you know. But we loved him, and brought him home. And now he's part of our little family.
What is taking my daughter so long?? I want to get ready for bed.
Sandy
Posted by Fallen4myT on March 29, 2004, at 20:03:22
In reply to Re: Sandy » Fallen4myT, posted by SandyWeb on March 29, 2004, at 19:55:48
So your kids are basically teens :) hahaha you'll never get in the bathroom again..kids that age hog it I hear....Wow you rock..you saved them from that creep....I bet they love you too and when they get older and REALLY realize what all you did for them they will feel very loved. Hey I am still in my skirt and blouse...so we both need our pj's.....maybe a shower would be nice too...I have 4 cats and a dog a golden retriever all soooo cute they are my kids. I hear you on some people wanting perfect pets cause my pets were all give ups to the pound and rescue and all...heart issues and stuff....Go make hot choc and shower..get those PJ's on Il; be back in 10...well 15 hahaha and you almost sounds like cyber..what ya wearing hahahaha
Posted by SandyWeb on March 29, 2004, at 20:03:45
In reply to Re: Sandy » SandyWeb, posted by Fallen4myT on March 29, 2004, at 19:54:13
The hospital here actually has a pdoc on site 24 hours for walk-ins. So I guess I would get assessed right away. What if they say that nothing is wrong with me?? I am so bad at explaining things about myself. I always say that when I explain an apple to people, they think that I've just described an orange! I just don't do well with explaining what makes me tick.
Oh, and you have to go to ER triage? Won't everybody hear what your problem is? How humiliating.
And the family part.....I do NOT want my family to know. I'm not sure what to do about that. I know the kids would be okay here by themselves for a few days. I could stock the shelves, and they've been latch-key kids for years now. Would the hospital check to see if an adult was with them? I mean, Ben is going on 16-years old.
Is it like a regular hospital unit? Hospital beds, 4 to a room, that sort of thing?? What if my neighbor SNORES!!! LOL!!!
And what do you do when you're in there?
As for me being a nurse, that is not going to happen. No funds. I've dumped so much stuff down the garbage chute already. All my notes and such. I haven't packed the books because I don't have any large boxes, but they're all fixed up and ready to go. All my supplies and scrubs are packed, though. I told you.....I'm going to be a bag lady. *smile*
In your jamies yet?
Sandy
Posted by Fallen4myT on March 29, 2004, at 20:13:57
In reply to Re: Sandy » Fallen4myT, posted by SandyWeb on March 29, 2004, at 20:03:45
Sandy I didnt read the whole thread so no I didnt know...on the nurse gig but you can always go back..after the hospital..btw, cup one of hot choc is mmm mmm good lol...Your hospital may be differnr than mine but it was like part of a floor on that was all psych...and you can say youre an "orange" loland they will take you in :-) Actually, they ask you a bunch of stuff and you answer in a seperate area thats how it went for me anyhow...just say..I WANT TO HURT MYSELF and trust me they WILL take you in. AND IF..IF they ask you in a public area...just ask for a piece of paper..and write...I AM SUICIDAL ...they must keep all confidental
Posted by SandyWeb on March 29, 2004, at 20:23:30
In reply to Re: Sandy » SandyWeb, posted by Fallen4myT on March 29, 2004, at 20:13:57
Oh, I like the part about writing it on a piece of paper. That's a biggie for me.....just vocalizing the part about being suicidal. I still haven't done that yet. I haven't said the word out loud, and I don't think that I can.
What do your jamies look like? I'm wearing a mismatched pair tonight! Lol! Purple pants and blue top, all cotton and comfy as all get-go!
Sandy
Posted by SandyWeb on March 29, 2004, at 20:34:04
In reply to Re: Sandy » SandyWeb, posted by Fallen4myT on March 29, 2004, at 20:13:57
I don't mean to skip out on you after you just got in your jamies (hee hee), but I have to get to bed. That alarm clock rings early in the morning. I try to tell it to go away, but it keeps on yakking at me! Lol!
It was nice meeting you. Thanks for helping me get past the BAD cop situation. I was really in a bad place. Thanks for letting me talk your ear off. I know it's going to bother me once I get in bed, but hopefully not as badly as it would have if we hadn't chatted. *smile* Thanks so much.
Take care of yourself and your little zoo of animals! Wow! Can you say "shedding"?? And I thought one kitty had a lot of fur to pick up after. Lol! You must have a couple dozen dust-busters around your house! *wink*
Take care! Enjoy your cool weather. Oh, by the way...what a shock when I was just in the bathroom. I forgot about my red face, and there was this STRANGER looking back at me from the mirror. Ha! I look ODD. *chuckle*
Sweet dreams!
Sandy
Posted by Fallen4myT on March 29, 2004, at 20:45:22
In reply to Re: Sandy » Fallen4myT, posted by SandyWeb on March 29, 2004, at 20:23:30
thanks for waiting..i am back ..showered and in a red chemise...Yes write it down or print a post you posted on it..take it with you...I am eating cheese and berries lol starberries..want some? wish i had drippy choc to dip them in
Posted by Fallen4myT on March 29, 2004, at 20:51:31
In reply to Re: Sandy » Fallen4myT, posted by SandyWeb on March 29, 2004, at 20:34:04
Thats ok I am glad you will be able to sleep I take Ambein and was so happy to meet you I will look for you tomorrow...I am clean lol...Yes I sweep everyday. ...and wash all my floors. 3 of my cats have long hair and am allergic to cats but have had the one for over 16 years...not gonna rid of my kids :) Youre really very nice and I feel like I made a new friend. Was your face red from crying OR the sun? WOW if the sun..wow...wear sunscreen now on :)
On the cop deal...scr*$ his tude...youre above that and dont let him win and mess up your thoughts...and hugs my friend ...See ya tomorrow..Hope you go to ER ya know eh?
Posted by gardenergirl on March 29, 2004, at 22:08:08
In reply to Re: Sandy » SandyWeb, posted by Fallen4myT on March 29, 2004, at 20:51:31
Posted by Fallen4myT on March 29, 2004, at 22:17:22
In reply to (((((Fallen4AmyT))))) and (((((SandyWeb))))) (nm), posted by gardenergirl on March 29, 2004, at 22:08:08
Posted by jlynne on March 29, 2004, at 22:54:41
In reply to Re: Sandy » Fallen4myT, posted by SandyWeb on March 29, 2004, at 20:34:04
. . . looks like you found an angel:~)
((((HUGS))))
...jlynne
Posted by Fallen4myT on March 29, 2004, at 23:47:25
In reply to Hey, Sandy . . ., posted by jlynne on March 29, 2004, at 22:54:41
jlynne I know I did. I am newish to this area..I usually haunt the psychology section and anyone that knows me there knows I have a creep of a husband and am smitten with my T...anyhow seems Sandy has done what I havent done yet..dump the abusive hubby and she will help me make this move no doubt....I think it a very brave thing to do and to do it to *protect your kids* tells me she loves those kids and thus did a hard thing to make their lives good and safe and happy and well we just click. I wish more people went to the psych area...cause thats where I kinda hang though its kinda empty lately
Posted by jlynne on March 30, 2004, at 0:28:22
In reply to Re: Hey, Sandy . . . » jlynne, posted by Fallen4myT on March 29, 2004, at 23:47:25
I'm glad you found each other . . . and I'm glad I found you both:~) The world can be very cold and cruel when you feel alone.
You both have big decisions to make, and you have each been where the other needs to go now - that is so huge! I am beginning to believe in cyber-miracles . . .
I will tell you both something I used to tell my kids when they didn't want to do their chores: "You don't have to like it; you just have to do it."
((((Sandy)))) ((((Fallen))))
...jlynne
Posted by SandyWeb on March 30, 2004, at 1:12:02
In reply to Sandy and Fallen, posted by jlynne on March 30, 2004, at 0:28:22
I had a message. It got lost. *sigh* I'm such a loser. I can't even send a message properly.
Guess it wasn't important. I can't seem to do much right in this life of mine.
Pity party...come one come all.
Posted by jlynne on March 30, 2004, at 1:13:23
In reply to Re: Sandy and Fallen » jlynne, posted by SandyWeb on March 30, 2004, at 1:12:02
Hey, sweetie . . . what are you doing up so late?
...jlynne
Posted by SandyWeb on March 30, 2004, at 1:18:18
In reply to Sandy, posted by jlynne on March 30, 2004, at 1:13:23
Hi jlynne,
I couldn't sleep. I think that darn tootin cop traumatized me. Lol.
Posted by SandyWeb on March 30, 2004, at 1:30:06
In reply to Sandy, posted by jlynne on March 30, 2004, at 1:13:23
Guess I'll try to hit the pillows again. It's almost 3:30am. No sleep, no food make Sandy a psychotic loser.
Wait a minute....I'm a loser whether I sleep or eat anyways.
I got so stomped on by that cop. He broke me, and then turned on his heel and left me. I couldn't have felt much better than that.
Okay, cheerful Sandy will leave now. I don't even feel like going to the hospital now. I feel so defeated. I don't think I have the energy to put up with hospital interviews. That would hurt my already broken brain...and soul.
Take care, sweetie.
Sandy
Posted by jlynne on March 30, 2004, at 1:30:15
In reply to Re: Sandy » jlynne, posted by SandyWeb on March 30, 2004, at 1:18:18
I'm not surprised. I remember being treated poorly by certain people in authority when I was on welfare. I hate bigotry.
My agency has been educating our police force for several years, and so has the mental health agency - - we are affecting changes, believe it or not.
Not soon enough for you, though, eh? Heck with him - he's full of @#!? anyway!
...jlynne
Posted by SandyWeb on March 30, 2004, at 1:32:41
In reply to Re: Sandy » SandyWeb, posted by jlynne on March 30, 2004, at 1:30:15
Yes, it would be lovely to say "the heck with him"....but I'm still reeling from his behavior. And more so....from my sense of loss of self. I was so powerless.
Time heals, right? *sigh* I'm tired.
Posted by jlynne on March 30, 2004, at 1:36:47
In reply to Re: Sandy » jlynne, posted by SandyWeb on March 30, 2004, at 1:32:41
'night, sweetie. Some sleep is what you need. I'll man the planet for awhile:)
Sweet dreams . . . zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
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(those are stars)...jlynne
Posted by SandyWeb on March 30, 2004, at 1:38:38
In reply to Re: Sandy » SandyWeb, posted by jlynne on March 30, 2004, at 1:30:15
I'm going to try and get some sleep.
I don't like myself very much right now. I'm still the same as when I was married to hubby. After all these years, I still crumple under a man's loud voice. I still let him run over and stomp on my self-esteem.
Too bad there weren't more gals like me!
I'm not going to make it, am I? What a fool I've been.
Well, back to the pillows. Chat later.
Sandy
Posted by jlynne on March 30, 2004, at 1:42:37
In reply to Re: Sandy » jlynne, posted by SandyWeb on March 30, 2004, at 1:38:38
. . . you're going to make it, love. Just get some rest now. You've been through the wringer.
I'll be on watch:~)
((((soft strokes))))
...jlynne
Posted by SandyWeb on March 30, 2004, at 9:00:30
In reply to Re: Sandy » SandyWeb, posted by jlynne on March 30, 2004, at 1:42:37
Good morning jlynne,
After I got the kids off to school this morning, I layed back down for another hour. I am exhausted. I am sooo tired, and I can't seem to get my brain to wake up. Ugh.
Thanks for the ((soft strokes)). Touch does wonders, doesn't it? I'm thankful that my kids still like to be hugged, and they'll still even cuddle with me. Can you imagine that at 12-years and 15-years?? Wow! I've got some special kids here! They're not perfect by any means and can drive me absolutely batty, but I think we've got a pretty darn good relationship. Maybe it comes from being the only parent in the household. I don't know, but I'm not questioning it.
I have no idea what I'm going to do today. During my 2 1/2 hour walk yesterday, I was going around and around in my head trying to figure out what I could do now that I can't afford to return to University. But after all the walking...and sun stroke (ha!)....I still didn't come up with a solution. Life requires money. The only "completed" education I have is my high school....and that was a lifetime ago. Work experience was also another lifetime ago. Darn! I should have had hubby work while he sent ME to school, rather than me working to support HIM through school. Isn't that always the way, though? Men are such dinkle-dorfs! LOL!
I'm still scared to go to the hospital. There were times while I was in bed last night that I thought I could really push myself to walk over there today. But after that degrading experience with MR. Bad Cop yesterday, it's going to take a bit of time to feel any sort of trust towards an authority figure again. I can't believe he would treat ANYONE like that, suicidal or not. He has become a very hardened person, and maybe he shouldn't be a police officer anymore. Then again, maybe he's always been this way and he gets his thrills over having power over others. Ramble ramble.
I need to go wash up. Big day of sitting in my chair ahead of me. I haven't told my kids yet that I've left school. I haven't told anyone except you guys and the nice cops from the SECOND visit. I don't know how to tell them. We've all been making sacrafices in order for me to complete my nursing....the kids knew we would be financially okay once that was done. Now....just another family on welfare.
It's awful to get out of bed feeling bummed. *smile*
God bless,
Sandy
Posted by SandyWeb on March 30, 2004, at 9:41:44
In reply to Re: Sandy » SandyWeb, posted by Fallen4myT on March 29, 2004, at 20:51:31
And on with the self-pity thread. Lol. :
I felt like I was back with hubby last night, when that cop was putting me in my place. I thought that time of my life was over.
And now I can't even go outside anymore because I don't want any cops to see me. I'm a laughing-stock. Even if I did go to the hospital, the cops wouldn't know this and they'd still think I was a dumb trouble-maker. I can't lift my head up around here anymore.
I am totally ruined.
And how is your morning? Lol!
Miss Suzy Sunshine signing off.
Posted by SandyWeb on March 30, 2004, at 9:55:43
In reply to Re: Sandy, posted by SandyWeb on March 30, 2004, at 9:41:44
I quit. I just plain quit.
I'm leaving this site.
I'm shutting my computer down.
I don't want anything to do with anyone.
No more meds, no more tears, no more talk, no more cops. No more failure.
I quit. Plain and simple.
I quit, I quit, I quit.
I've had enough. I'm sick of this whole adventure.
Thanks for the memories, guys. Now it's time to put a stop to them.
Bye. (AND DO NOT CALL THE COPS!!!! That's worse than death! Just leave me alone)
Sandy
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