Psycho-Babble Psychology Thread 699467

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so sad

Posted by sunnydays on October 31, 2006, at 22:31:13

I'm feeling so so sad tonight. Who knows why. These feelings just come out of nowhere, it seems. And I miss my T. It's only two more days until I see him, but it feels like I have to climb Mount Everest in between. I just need comfort. Whoever was talking about a closet with pillows in it and a lamp, I need that so bad right now. And lots of blankets, and my stuffed rabbit. And the ability to sleep until I can see my T again and no work to do. And no responsibilities.

Memories get triggered even with no cause at all it seems like. Reading a scientific article about harassment for food in animals should not make me break down crying. I just don't understand where these feelings come from. And they hurt so much.

sunnydays

 

Re: so sad

Posted by ElaineM on October 31, 2006, at 23:19:54

In reply to so sad, posted by sunnydays on October 31, 2006, at 22:31:13

I'm sorry you're sad Sunny. It's frustrating when feelings pop up out of nowhere. Especially at night - I think it's a teeny bit easier to distract myself during the day. Do you have a "closet-like" place where you are? Sometimes I used to decorate my side of the dorm room with Christmas lights. It made it feel safe - like lying under a rainbow all the time.

I'm glad your T is such a comfort to you. Hope you can get some sleep tonight. At least he'll be a little bit closer in the morning.

((((((((sunnydays))))))))
blove, EL

 

Re: so sad

Posted by Daisym on November 1, 2006, at 0:34:55

In reply to Re: so sad, posted by ElaineM on October 31, 2006, at 23:19:54

Sounds like grieving to me. Things just come up and out during this process. I hope you can find a way to talk to your therapist about how much you miss him. It never makes sense to me, but talking about it often helps things.

Hang in there. Two days should go fast. Until then, feel free to share my closet.
Hugs,
Daisy

 

still sad

Posted by sunnydays on November 2, 2006, at 21:11:12

In reply to Re: so sad, posted by Daisym on November 1, 2006, at 0:34:55

Thanks Daisy and Elaine. I really really appreciated your responses. I'm seeing a pdoc tomorrow to get my meds adjusted maybe - a little nervouse because I have to see someone new because my usual pdoc is out for quite a while. And I just feel so sad. I was optimistic after group, but it just has totally disappeared. I just wish I felt some hope.
sunnydays

 

Re: still sad

Posted by sunnydays on November 2, 2006, at 21:18:46

In reply to still sad, posted by sunnydays on November 2, 2006, at 21:11:12

I don't know. It's just this really heavy, empty feeling. And I miss my therapist so so much. And I see him tomorrow, but I just wish that I could see him all the time. I just feel like I need to talk to him all the time. And I'm so sad that I can't have that all the time.

sunnydays

 

Re: still sad sunnydays

Posted by Daisym on November 2, 2006, at 22:07:10

In reply to Re: still sad, posted by sunnydays on November 2, 2006, at 21:18:46

I'm sorry things remain hard and you feel so sad. Hopefully your therapist can help with this some tomorrow. Grieving often feels like a bottemless pit.

I didn't realize you were going to a group. How is that?

 

Re: still sad Daisym

Posted by sunnydays on November 2, 2006, at 22:14:05

In reply to Re: still sad sunnydays, posted by Daisym on November 2, 2006, at 22:07:10

It's okay. It's a DBT skills group. My therapist thought it would be better to learn some distress tolerance skills before starting a trauma group. I am finding it very useful. I have a really hard time talking about things with my therapist, but I find it easier to talk there because I don't have to talk about my feelings - just focus on when skills were useful and how and why they weren't. So I feel a little more removed from my feelings. But we are doing really hard things in therapy, plus I think my depression might be back, so I might need med changes. I'm just having a hard time. Earlier this week I started crying for no reason when reading something (it was real scientific) and I'm not usually like that. It just sometimes feels like I am falling apart.

sunnydays

 

Re: still sad sunnydays

Posted by Daisym on November 2, 2006, at 22:46:43

In reply to Re: still sad Daisym, posted by sunnydays on November 2, 2006, at 22:14:05

I've never done a DBT group. I think it is wise to have skills in place if you are going to join a trauma group. I'm finding mine (survivor's group) to be fairly triggering lately as we are sharing some pretty detailed stories. I'm glad it is small.

Do you want to talk about why therapy is so hard right now? What are you working on? It doesn't surprise me that you are dealing with some hard material. You told your therapist how you've been feeling about him and he reponded in such a lovely way. This deeper trust allows you to go a little deeper within yourself, which can be painful. I often wish that I could just sit for a few sessions after a really good session before taking a deep breath and diving deeper again.

 

Re: still sad sunnydays

Posted by Dinah on November 3, 2006, at 9:13:39

In reply to still sad, posted by sunnydays on November 2, 2006, at 21:11:12

Sometimes seeing a new pdoc can give you a fresh view of your medications. So it might not be so bad a thing that your regular pdoc is out of town.

This *sounds* like something a meds adjustment might help, although that's only my two cents and what do I know.

 

Re: still sad Dinah

Posted by sunnydays on November 3, 2006, at 11:23:49

In reply to Re: still sad sunnydays, posted by Dinah on November 3, 2006, at 9:13:39

Thanks Dinah. I went, it was fine. I am going to add another medication and see if that works. I hope so.

sunnydays


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