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Posted by kid_A on December 20, 2001, at 16:30:47
...maybe you can understand, i dont know, maybe the notion that you can is uncalled for, forgive my intrusion... i started on meds because i was depressed, sad, weepy, boo hoo... now on meds sometimes i still feel depressed, yet I have this pervading feeling of madness, like the way that you get lookiing down from a high tower at the people down below, and no, its not suicide ideation, but you wonder in your head what it would be like to jump, just feeling crazy, i dont know i feel like im slipping into a new suit, its sharkskin and it fits me like a glove, and sometimes all the old feelings come rushing back and the only thing that can save me is alcohol and doctor xanax, but the rest of the time i am on a flat plane and tightrope walking on a wire and i know that its a long way down but i dont think that i care, i think that im only two feet away, its that mad look and the smile, and those eyes that are staring, not at you but beyond, at the skyline, where the land meets the horizon, out and beyond even that.do you understand? dr. Eamer, am I crazy???
Posted by dreamer on December 20, 2001, at 20:15:23
In reply to Dr Eamer, Help! I think I'm Crazy!!!, posted by kid_A on December 20, 2001, at 16:30:47
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> ...maybe you can understand, i dont know, maybe the notion that you can is uncalled for, forgive my intrusion... i started on meds because i was depressed, sad, weepy, boo hoo... now on meds sometimes i still feel depressed, yet I have this pervading feeling of madness, like the way that you get lookiing down from a high tower at the people down below, and no, its not suicide ideation, but you wonder in your head what it would be like to jump, just feeling crazy, i dont know i feel like im slipping into a new suit, its sharkskin and it fits me like a glove, and sometimes all the old feelings come rushing back and the only thing that can save me is alcohol and doctor xanax, but the rest of the time i am on a flat plane and tightrope walking on a wire and i know that its a long way down but i dont think that i care, i think that im only two feet away, its that mad look and the smile, and those eyes that are staring, not at you but beyond, at the skyline, where the land meets the horizon, out and beyond even that.
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> do you understand? dr. Eamer, am I crazy???No intrusion I'm flattered but a bit scattered and have a physical need that I can't get on prescription.
Meanwhile..
Risk taking the madness the adrenaline rush of excitement playing with cruel life on the edge.......kicking up the stale dust cutting through the human flesh feeling so ashamed of being human .
If you were rich maybe you'd hanglide off the empire state building or parachute naked.You carry an adventure within that can't be fulfilled and it's frustrating and fantasy doesn't fill the empty gap.
Everyone around don't walk the path so consolation is escapism to drown the yearning.
PASSION can be a lonely city loving who you are but in conflict being yourself isn't conventional ,to be lost but carry a map that will eventually lead you to the treasure whether it be creatively or through someone else's eyes.
No you aint mad eat yer greens and drink plenty of warm water .
Your not alone in your quest and pain.
I'm suffering the the grandeur of delusion I too want to jump but I think I can fly.Hoping my autonomy of consciousness makes sense .
Dr.Eamerxxxxxx
Posted by Willow on December 21, 2001, at 10:43:56
In reply to Dr Eamer.....Craziness.......all in the mind. » kid_A, posted by dreamer on December 20, 2001, at 20:15:23
Kid
What you need is a holiday where there's lots of snow and snowbunnies. How this works is by taking your mind off your troubles and self. Worries about the future, loved ones, co-workers, and finances seem trivial when you are flying down a mountain screaming at the top of your lungs if they have any air in them. Once you get home from the festivities the experience will help you to keep things in perspective.
Regarding looking down, reminds me of an acid trip I had. I wasn't delusional so I knew I wasn't twenty stories up, but yet I was too scared to test reality. I think your too young to remember those times and I'm not sure if every town had a few like ours who thought they could fly. (Dreamer how you survived those years I wonder?)
> You carry an adventure within that can't be fulfilled and it's frustrating and fantasy doesn't fill the empty gap.
Or perhaps, Dreamer, like myself, we're too scared to let the fantasy turn into reality?
Whispering Willow
ps do you think kazoo's cat ate his tongue?
Posted by kid_A on December 21, 2001, at 13:27:52
In reply to Re: Dr Eamer.....Craziness.......all in the mind., posted by Willow on December 21, 2001, at 10:43:56
>I think your too young to remember those times and I'm not sure if every town had a few like ours who thought they could fly. (Dreamer how you survived those years I wonder?)
ARRRRRRRGHH I've written this message three times, I hit reset once by accident, then I went back a page to add name of previous poster and my message was gone, and now number three!!
As for acid, I've done my share, I started doing it in highschool, and sometimes IN highschool, I've tried them all really, xcept for two I personally avoided, Ketamine, the wacked out anaestetic, and GHB aka Liquid Coma...
As for the vacation, I'm in luck cause I'm going back to england soon and I've been promised a night out on the town in Camden doing the pub crawl... It involves an activity I'm quite adept at: drinking, so that should be a blast...
"I got my head down,
when I was young,
it's not my problem...
it's not my problem!"
-blur Song #2
Posted by dreamer on December 21, 2001, at 13:47:07
In reply to Re: Dr Eamer.....Craziness.......all in the mind., posted by Willow on December 21, 2001, at 10:43:56
> Kid
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> What you need is a holiday where there's lots of snow and snowbunnies. How this works is by taking your mind off your troubles and self. Worries about the future, loved ones, co-workers, and finances seem trivial when you are flying down a mountain screaming at the top of your lungs if they have any air in them. Once you get home from the festivities the experience will help you to keep things in perspective.HiWillow,
What are snowbunnies , white frisky rabbits?
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I'm not sure if every town had a few like ours who thought they could fly. (Dreamer how you survived those years I wonder?)I always had a cycle and was crazy fast pulling brakes last minute I used to pretend I was carrying little people and and we would fly over bumpy dirt tracks in the forest .
> > You carry an adventure within that can't be fulfilled and it's frustrating and fantasy doesn't fill the empty gap.
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> Or perhaps, Dreamer, like myself, we're too scared to let the fantasy turn into reality?Scared suppose but lately I've been trying I am fearful of success/change though , but even that is subsiding somewhat.
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> ps do you think kazoo's cat ate his tongue?People come and go and forget to close the door...
dreamer..... who had to be sedated and slept in her clothes and shoes.
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