Posted by kid_A on December 20, 2001, at 16:30:47
...maybe you can understand, i dont know, maybe the notion that you can is uncalled for, forgive my intrusion... i started on meds because i was depressed, sad, weepy, boo hoo... now on meds sometimes i still feel depressed, yet I have this pervading feeling of madness, like the way that you get lookiing down from a high tower at the people down below, and no, its not suicide ideation, but you wonder in your head what it would be like to jump, just feeling crazy, i dont know i feel like im slipping into a new suit, its sharkskin and it fits me like a glove, and sometimes all the old feelings come rushing back and the only thing that can save me is alcohol and doctor xanax, but the rest of the time i am on a flat plane and tightrope walking on a wire and i know that its a long way down but i dont think that i care, i think that im only two feet away, its that mad look and the smile, and those eyes that are staring, not at you but beyond, at the skyline, where the land meets the horizon, out and beyond even that.do you understand? dr. Eamer, am I crazy???
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