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Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on July 16, 2009, at 12:43:01
2 days ago, i had to admitted myelf for 1 day at the hospital. The stuff that is going on at home, i cannot take, the hostiliziation, the antagonization, the bullying, i called the police, talked to an officer, (police) improvised for help right now, go talk to a doctor at JPS. I did, and i signed myself in for 1 (1/2) day, to get away from the hostile, "evilness", at home. I know, that in the past, i had issues, yet now they are turning, what's happening, the mind is realizing no one can help, so it's on survival mode right now. 1 night, 1/2 day in hostital, but i didnt need to go to a unit. I asked, if needed to go to a unit, and they said we'll see. It's so funny, you get homesick, yet the home, is sick in causing more symtoms because, contant breakdowns, from infliction in the past, and then they act "fine", it's like it's not "real", it's a movie, it's not happening, yet it is.
I was given Zyprexa 20mg (the kinda that desolves under your tongue), the first night there. The 2nd day, given Ativan 2mg every 6 hours, Geodon 20mg (I believe) for so i could just "get back to earth", on top of the Zyprexa, because when I went into the hospital, I looked like i was on fire, mentally. I told them, the reason I came was because "antagonization" continueally, would happen, and it happened over and over, and i couldnt not take anymore, the amount of breakdown's (feeling your not real), and eventaully i called the Police, to just have someone to talk to. They refered me there. Yet when I got out, the same thing happens over again.
I told them the medication's i was taking Prozac, Xanax. Had evauluation again, and told basically why the medication's where used, and the previous medications from the past (4 years ago, what caused it).
The main doctor, there, thought it was best, to stay in, she didnt say why, but i agreed to her, yet I told her why i was here, because of home. Not because of anything thing else, it's to the point where, a volcanic eruption happens, over and over, and something is instigating it, to the point of insanity. I prayed, in my prayer's there, silent, things went ok. Gotta along with everyone, and you know there are people who are gifted in their own way, it's amazing.
Anyways, just an update.
rj
Posted by Phillipa on July 16, 2009, at 12:57:52
In reply to Recovery from breakdown couple weeks ago, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on July 16, 2009, at 12:43:01
RJ you know I'm proud of you for admitting yourself. Anyway did the medications help? Did the docs offer suggestions for you and new meds for daily use? Did they suggest counselling and change your diagnosis not that it matters what matters if that you feel better. Glad you updated. Love Phillipa
Posted by Zana on July 16, 2009, at 14:41:34
In reply to Re: Recovery from breakdown couple weeks ago » rjlockhart04-08, posted by Phillipa on July 16, 2009, at 12:57:52
Yes, I am curious too to know how the new meds worked. Are you going to stay on them or are you still formulating a plan? I agree with Phillipa, you did the right thing to get yourself in a safe place and it takes a lot of guts to do it.
Zana
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on July 16, 2009, at 16:03:39
In reply to Re: Recovery from breakdown couple weeks ago » rjlockhart04-08, posted by Phillipa on July 16, 2009, at 12:57:52
This is the first time, I had to get somewhere to get away, even if it's a lock down unit, get away from home. At least the people there, where friendly, and some of them where gifted in there own way's in humor, some in making jokes about life. It's not bad, i did it. The next time, i'm telling the doctor, if you cannot see what is going on, buying into a lie, of something that is not being seen at home. My doctor threw me away, so that's life. The other one before that, bought into the lie.
At least at a PsychWard they know what's going on, and not a lie. I can actually sit down with a doctor, and have someone to care for you, unstead of having a complete emotional/mental breakdown, start shaking, it changes the DNA features. You feel homesick, but.....actually home is making you sick. The reason i didnt get anywhere, is because of a mental breakdown. No one there, only the Holy Spirit to hold on to (that's more religious that's not discussed here).
I was given the Zyprexa, and i asked is this a modern day 'thorazine?'...she laughed, no, but it's going to calm you down. 20mg is alot. yet, in an emergency case like that, it shut down things back to normal, because when I was talking, my hair looked like it was fire, my eyes where red, in a sense of tramalike. Zyprexa calmed....it "put" me out, at 20mg, 24 hours (dyphoric feeling), it wasnt, it just "stablized" unstable nueron's back to normal until i could actually talk with a doctor.
Talked with some people, just in general, how are you? and, you know.....it was ok, and It benefited to a point, to where the mind, "didnt split". From antagonization, it's so many things, yet i don't blame, but it's the cirmcumstance of what is going on 360 degrees.
Ativan calmed.....it's not as "strong" as Xanax, yet, it calms "indirectly" than Xanax. Xanax calms emotions, and nueron's that are unstable, in the past, yet it only lasts 2 hours, and it depends on "when you take it", the XR kind, can impair you someday's. Geodon 20mg or 40? I don't know, but it stablized the fire that was going on. So Zyprexa 20mg, Ativan 2mg (every 6 hours), Geodon 20mg was the medication that "put" back the body, into one piece. And i thank the Unit doctor for understanding, for the care.
The diagnosis, I do not know. They recorded it. It was anxiety to the point, "firelike-anxiety" sweating, eyes are in terror, don't move.
That's it, finally I've told this, cannot hide it.
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on July 16, 2009, at 16:11:28
In reply to Re: Recovery from breakdown couple weeks ago, posted by Zana on July 16, 2009, at 14:41:34
zana...
It was only for the time, during hospitization. Prozac and Xanax work appropriate right now, but i've got to get help, it's not helping with all things. Geodon....just "calmed back to earth". Zyprexa was a "thorazine" at 20mg.
She told me, to see if 'your ok' and be monitered, and if being in a unit was nessasarry. At this point, all hell broke lose, I stay in my room to avoid, anything, because it causes fear to even leave my room now. It's like a safe place from abuse.
That's all.
Take care..
rj
Posted by Phillipa on July 16, 2009, at 21:27:00
In reply to Re: Recovery from breakdown couple weeks ago, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on July 16, 2009, at 16:11:28
RJ sounds like it was a very positive experience for you can you continue those same meds in maybe lower doses at home? And continue to see that doctor or one he recommends? I would think the hospital would have arranged a follow up visit with a collegue or the doc himself and a new prescription for meds? Love Phillipa second Mom
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on July 17, 2009, at 10:25:14
In reply to Re: Recovery from breakdown couple weeks ago » rjlockhart04-08, posted by Phillipa on July 16, 2009, at 21:27:00
It was only at the hospital. Geodon work good, Zyprexa has always worked well in the past, (5mg)
Lamictal was just an error, it happens. Zyprexa causes weight gain, increases hunger.I've taken Ativan before, 2mg X 3 daily (2005), yet it's, more "indirect" than Xanax, the potency. 2mg of Lorazepam is equel (me) .5mg-1mg of Xanax. Yet it lasts longer...6 hours. Xanax works fast, yet only lasts 2 hours, but it is effective in panic. Ativan is more like cold air, blowing over the nerves, Xanax is like cold water. See the diffrence? The anxiety is caused from "something" (not saying who), over and over, and plus, breakdown's, loss of mental function for about 3 days, just layed there. People just are blind, to what's going on.
I can't, in there i felt, "independent" because, i didnt have to worry about, manipulation, abuse and stuff. Yet i have to get on my feet, turned in 1 job application this morning, Starbuck's, and there is more to go down the list.
Many times in the past, I just was immature, because i didnt develop with....people, did stuff normal, yet now, writing, and studying, yet concentration is bad, it's like it comes to me. Not everything, but one thing i'm horrible at is math....writing it, and thinking it. I can do it, it just strain's mental energy, litterly solve an equation would drain me to the bed.
That's all. I'm at the library right now. Stay here, research job's online. Yet the treatment is not being done. But, you can go without it, functioning is going to hard, like a car...that has some aspect's of an average Ford, yet the transmission is hard to start, and hard to "flow". Bad car, yet, i've prayed my car would start, (currently) it does, it just has alot defects because it's getting old.
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I don't know what's going to happen, it's fear, being inflicted from someone, repeatedly until the mind "rotates", after a breakdown. No doctor help or anything.
thanks
rj
Posted by nurse jackie on July 21, 2009, at 15:12:30
In reply to Re: Recovery from breakdown couple weeks ago, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on July 17, 2009, at 10:25:14
> It was only at the hospital. Geodon work good, Zyprexa has always worked well in the past, (5mg)
> Lamictal was just an error, it happens. Zyprexa causes weight gain, increases hunger.
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> I've taken Ativan before, 2mg X 3 daily (2005), yet it's, more "indirect" than Xanax, the potency. 2mg of Lorazepam is equel (me) .5mg-1mg of Xanax. Yet it lasts longer...6 hours. Xanax works fast, yet only lasts 2 hours, but it is effective in panic. Ativan is more like cold air, blowing over the nerves, Xanax is like cold water. See the diffrence? The anxiety is caused from "something" (not saying who), over and over, and plus, breakdown's, loss of mental function for about 3 days, just layed there. People just are blind, to what's going on.
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> I can't, in there i felt, "independent" because, i didnt have to worry about, manipulation, abuse and stuff. Yet i have to get on my feet, turned in 1 job application this morning, Starbuck's, and there is more to go down the list.
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> Many times in the past, I just was immature, because i didnt develop with....people, did stuff normal, yet now, writing, and studying, yet concentration is bad, it's like it comes to me. Not everything, but one thing i'm horrible at is math....writing it, and thinking it. I can do it, it just strain's mental energy, litterly solve an equation would drain me to the bed.
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> That's all. I'm at the library right now. Stay here, research job's online. Yet the treatment is not being done. But, you can go without it, functioning is going to hard, like a car...that has some aspect's of an average Ford, yet the transmission is hard to start, and hard to "flow". Bad car, yet, i've prayed my car would start, (currently) it does, it just has alot defects because it's getting old.
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> I don't know what's going to happen, it's fear, being inflicted from someone, repeatedly until the mind "rotates", after a breakdown. No doctor help or anything.
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> thanks
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> rj
>Hi RJ,
I'm not a psychiatric nurse, and I am compassionate for your troubles. Have you got anyone in your sphere of influence you can lean to? I am not sure your support factor in the home is supportive. I would get w peers or once employed and if you are able, look to your own resources. You can do it.
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