Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on July 17, 2009, at 10:25:14
In reply to Re: Recovery from breakdown couple weeks ago » rjlockhart04-08, posted by Phillipa on July 16, 2009, at 21:27:00
It was only at the hospital. Geodon work good, Zyprexa has always worked well in the past, (5mg)
Lamictal was just an error, it happens. Zyprexa causes weight gain, increases hunger.I've taken Ativan before, 2mg X 3 daily (2005), yet it's, more "indirect" than Xanax, the potency. 2mg of Lorazepam is equel (me) .5mg-1mg of Xanax. Yet it lasts longer...6 hours. Xanax works fast, yet only lasts 2 hours, but it is effective in panic. Ativan is more like cold air, blowing over the nerves, Xanax is like cold water. See the diffrence? The anxiety is caused from "something" (not saying who), over and over, and plus, breakdown's, loss of mental function for about 3 days, just layed there. People just are blind, to what's going on.
I can't, in there i felt, "independent" because, i didnt have to worry about, manipulation, abuse and stuff. Yet i have to get on my feet, turned in 1 job application this morning, Starbuck's, and there is more to go down the list.
Many times in the past, I just was immature, because i didnt develop with....people, did stuff normal, yet now, writing, and studying, yet concentration is bad, it's like it comes to me. Not everything, but one thing i'm horrible at is math....writing it, and thinking it. I can do it, it just strain's mental energy, litterly solve an equation would drain me to the bed.
That's all. I'm at the library right now. Stay here, research job's online. Yet the treatment is not being done. But, you can go without it, functioning is going to hard, like a car...that has some aspect's of an average Ford, yet the transmission is hard to start, and hard to "flow". Bad car, yet, i've prayed my car would start, (currently) it does, it just has alot defects because it's getting old.
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I don't know what's going to happen, it's fear, being inflicted from someone, repeatedly until the mind "rotates", after a breakdown. No doctor help or anything.
thanks
rj
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