Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on July 16, 2009, at 12:43:01
2 days ago, i had to admitted myelf for 1 day at the hospital. The stuff that is going on at home, i cannot take, the hostiliziation, the antagonization, the bullying, i called the police, talked to an officer, (police) improvised for help right now, go talk to a doctor at JPS. I did, and i signed myself in for 1 (1/2) day, to get away from the hostile, "evilness", at home. I know, that in the past, i had issues, yet now they are turning, what's happening, the mind is realizing no one can help, so it's on survival mode right now. 1 night, 1/2 day in hostital, but i didnt need to go to a unit. I asked, if needed to go to a unit, and they said we'll see. It's so funny, you get homesick, yet the home, is sick in causing more symtoms because, contant breakdowns, from infliction in the past, and then they act "fine", it's like it's not "real", it's a movie, it's not happening, yet it is.
I was given Zyprexa 20mg (the kinda that desolves under your tongue), the first night there. The 2nd day, given Ativan 2mg every 6 hours, Geodon 20mg (I believe) for so i could just "get back to earth", on top of the Zyprexa, because when I went into the hospital, I looked like i was on fire, mentally. I told them, the reason I came was because "antagonization" continueally, would happen, and it happened over and over, and i couldnt not take anymore, the amount of breakdown's (feeling your not real), and eventaully i called the Police, to just have someone to talk to. They refered me there. Yet when I got out, the same thing happens over again.
I told them the medication's i was taking Prozac, Xanax. Had evauluation again, and told basically why the medication's where used, and the previous medications from the past (4 years ago, what caused it).
The main doctor, there, thought it was best, to stay in, she didnt say why, but i agreed to her, yet I told her why i was here, because of home. Not because of anything thing else, it's to the point where, a volcanic eruption happens, over and over, and something is instigating it, to the point of insanity. I prayed, in my prayer's there, silent, things went ok. Gotta along with everyone, and you know there are people who are gifted in their own way, it's amazing.
Anyways, just an update.
rj
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