Posted by Maynerd on November 2, 2005, at 20:45:15
I once again find myself futilely searching for inner peace
Chaos swirling in my mind that I can’t seem to make cease
My insecurities continuously haunting every step that I take
While my internalized fears make my sanity slowly break
It seems like I am constantly being beaten down by my past
Every sanctuary I create to hide in never manages to last
A lifetime of being beaten down has covered my spirit with scars
Leaving me rejected and broken crying alone under the stars
I search but never seem to find my purpose on this earth
Making me constantly question if I have any qualities of worth
Afraid and distrustful of those who want to call me friend
Convinced that I will go out lonely and alone in the end
Low self esteem keeps driving me into an introverted shell
While my longing to escape keeps me in perpetual hell
Trying to escape this miserable depression I smoke lots of drugs
While ignoring the child inside that craves love and hugs
I dream of the day that the flat line finally sets me free
Knowing in my heart that when I’m gone no one will miss me
poster:Maynerd
thread:574696
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