Posted by Phillipa on August 19, 2005, at 23:19:04
I am Guilty for my mother's sickness and death
I am guilty for breaking a mirror and killing her she said.
I am gulty she carried me up two sets of stairs as baby.
I am guilty she let me eat her meat so she got sick
I am guilty I was a brat
I am guilty she had psoriasis all over her body
I am guilty she was up all night soaking in a tub
I am guilty and she said God will get you
I am guilty I cut my leg with a razor as a l4yr old and noone said a thing just bought me two pairs of shorts
I am guilty when she died when I was l7 and i was put in charge of the funeral and she asked me to make sure she was buried with her rings and they removed them and my father had them
I am guilty that I broke up with my first husband and when he ran to Florida and got sick I went back with him and got pregnant
I am guilty I wanted my kids to be independant and they moved far away and don't even care about me because I'm depressed
I am guilty I married four times
I am guilty my current husband quit his job
I am guilty I have chronic lymes, mixed bag of autoimmune diseases none bad enough for meds
I am guilty I'm on disability and don't know why
I am guilty I'm getting old
I am guilty I can't guarantee my husband I will be happy when and whereever we move as no job here
I am guilty I am numb
I am guilty my Son lost his sight and two finger tips in Desert Storm and I couldn't get him released
I am guilty my daughter-in-law divorce my son took my only grandson and kept away our bond
I am guilty they got remarried and the bond had never formed
I am guilty I can't find a med to get me over my depression.
I am guilty I'm not as smart as all the people on Pbabble cause they all found a drug mix that works.
I am guilty I am afraid to die
I am guilty and hate myself. Fondly, Phillipa
poster:Phillipa
thread:544092
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