Posted by Scott in Vermont on August 6, 2004, at 15:58:00
All written at different times. Compliled here for my reading pleasure.
TRAPPED
I can run and I can hide
Because there’s so much space inside
Like a house of leaves I twist and change
Every 10 minutes I re-arrange
Sometimes I feel trapped in my endless halls
Other times I’m furious and break through the walls
A window will appear every now and then
Showing me the sunlight, but it always endsHUNGER
Cavernous drops of unfathomable depth
Yawn before me in a swirling black
So inviting is the promise of nothingness
A place that is not a place, yet is the safest place of all
I hesitate at the edge, but I feel its want and need
... it wants me
The swirling black spins and grows larger
Attempting to engulf me, to take me where I pause to go
A part of me wants so much to be taken
I step back, and step back again
My eyes transfixed on the endless darkness
But my backward steps move me closer to the light
The darkness screams in yearning pain
It wants me
It needs me
… it is denied once again.RACES
Jagged thoughts race endlessly
Circling, spiraling, defining futility
Like a grotesque life form
They grow, change and mutate
Sometimes melting together into one
But they race onward, never stopping
Never slowing, never ceasing
Jagged thoughts race endlessly
WITHIN ME
Screaming inside my mind
My surface remains calm and placid
Like a summer lake on a windless day
But below the surface lurks a horrid beast
Waiting to break the surface
Break the calm
Break the silence
And rage uncontrolled
Destroyer of worlds I would become!
If only my daemon were to break free
I keep it in chains, but I hear it roar
Screaming inside my mindWORK
Another customer calls
Theirs needs are their own
I talk to them professionally
They have no clue what I am
They ask me things about their bill
They give me service requests
I do my best to please them all
I feel my thread stretch thin…BUT
I am not a monster
But a monster is inside me
I do not want the rage
But the rage wants me
I do not want the anger
But the anger embraces me
I do not want to face the darkness
But the darkness beckonsWYRD
In my dreams I hear my name
Spoken by my fathers from times long past
They call to me to join with them
To share the frith f the Speargod’s table
I want to walk through fire and swords
I want to join my fathers in the Golden Hall
But here I will stay until the is battle done
To remain a champion for the ones I loveDRIVING
Another beer, another roadsign
Another flash and roar
Another bullet speeding faster than sight
Another impact, another hole
Another testament to summertime mania
Another hot casing in my lap
Another empty bottle on the passenger floor
Another night wasted, another wasted night
poster:Scott in Vermont
thread:374784
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