Posted by PoohBear on January 29, 2004, at 10:45:12
Life with ADHD
My head upon my pillow lays,
Thoughts racing through my mind.
I cannot not turn them off,
To gain the silence I would find.The same four bars of a song
Play over and over without ending.
I cannot make them stop,
They live beyond my controlling.No one knows the anguish,
The feelings of despair,
That somehow I'm different,
That I just don't quite compare.I want to be like my friends.
They seem so self assured.
Their structured lives of order,
So unlike the chaos I endure.I know I'm smart, I'm bright.
I also know I'm not free.
My mind is the difference.
That seperates you and me.I oft say things I later regret.
I make plans but cannot follow through.
Projects started lay unfinished,
Weeks or months after they were due.My mind sees things completed
Before they're e're begun.
If I knew how to get from A to B,
I know that I could run.I live with chaos every day
It's there within my mind.
Normal people cannot understand,
Others like me, of my kind.We would do so well, if we could,
We'd excel, be normal, be free.
We'd do the things others do
Without thinking, naturally.Two steps forward, one step back.
So much effort with so little to show,
Is it really any wonder then,
That people think we're 'slow'?In my mind I see myself,
Able to think, clearly and free.
No more chaos or indecision
A future of mental productivity.Then I'll lay my head upon my pillow,
No racing thoughts will grip my mind.
I will not feel controlled.
My thoughts will drift into restful...sleep.
©2004 T. Reynolds
poster:PoohBear
thread:306852
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