Posted by qbsbrown on July 29, 2009, at 15:17:58
In reply to Re: why is kindling not discussed on forums/experts, posted by SLS on July 29, 2009, at 8:23:09
I don't want to jynx you, me, or us, but I think you might be onto something. But everything i write something like this, it turns on me and backfires. So forget that i wrote this.
Well, you know the first dose of tegretol hit me pretty good (was up at 3am in a puddle of sweat), took the second this morning, had deeper sleep than a long time (6am to 730am). I was able to engage with my student more during my online tutoring sessions.
It afforded me to go out of the house (which I couldn't) and walk around a foreign area. Don't wanna tout it, because it then backfires on me.
Sure, utter and total confusion (but less so w/o the anticonvulsant, I couldn't leave the apt w/ fear of not being able to find my way home), loss of touch w/ reality, ruminating/obsessive/intrusive/racing thoughts/inner monologue the whole time. basically out of my mind, i was almost laughing at myself.
This feels much like my cold turkey experience, where i couldn't tell you my name or address, and i'm close to that. I can't but laugh at myself. It's like walking around being the craziest person out there, but no one really knows. Kinda like the sczhizo walking around the streets.
Now with the theory of kindling, what do you think is suggested as a taper rate? Perhaps once and if the anticonvulsant mitigates the kindling, one tapers quicker?
I understand dr ashton and other that if one tapers too quick, or does a rapid detox, that it could lead to psychosis (which feels close), and also a protracted withdrawal, which I fear. I'd like to think that my brain could heal rather quickly, but that might be wishful thinking.
But I don't really see a point for someone who is basically in a state of cold turkey to drag the taper out over a year.
Usually the people who follow her structure are people who start out at a stabilized point, and not in total kindled and total tolerance wd like myself.
My one doc said 6-8 weeks off that it should readjust (after he detoxed me in 1 week, felt great, but i dropped the anticonvulsant too quickly, and severe racing thoughts came on.
The people at the yahoo benzo forum, which is the largest online, say 6-18 months off of all drugs to heal. They for sure would not condone the use of an anticonvulsant.
But no need to put a timetable on recovery rate.
Thanks for your continued help and advice.
Regards,
Brian
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