Posted by Clayton on October 31, 2003, at 19:04:49
In reply to Re: ok so who is knowledgeable about meth? » silmarilone, posted by BarbaraCat on September 6, 2003, at 12:37:08
Not much to add except that I agree and think that amphetamines are probably the most pernicious, addictive and damaging of all drugs ever invented. Coming down is worse than hell and the addictive craving is insatiable.
I "predated" crystal meth and somehow, thank god, missed the whole cocaine scene. But I swallowed a lot of meth tabs ("whites") for about three years in my twenties. I only quit because my supplier moved away.
Right about the time I stopped swallowing pills, I developed GAD, severe SAD, horrific, unrelenting insomnia and an a amotivational syndrome that continues to this day (damage to the "reward system").
I read the reputable medical literature and I am aware of the permanent damage that is done to brain from amphetamine use. It is freightening but I have to face it. My psychiatric symptoms are well within the normal range of behavoral dyfunctions that results from the psysiological harm. And I have come through much better than some. Those folks you mentioned who are missing teeth are a good example.
I am lucky that I have found a good combination of psychotropics that somewhat diminish the dysfunctional behavior and rending mood problems. They are Paxil and Remaron, used synergistically (Paxil alone was almost worthless).
By the way, my father was a depressed and vicious alchoholic and I inherited the addictive predisposition with a vengence.
I cope as well as I am able and am always looking for ways to improve. I was a child of the sixties, far less wild than many who got caught up in that drug scene. I try not to regret it. When all else fails and I am feeling my worst, I try, at a minimum, to exercise my free will to behave ethically and with kindness to others.
Any suggestions are very welcome!
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