Posted by ClearSkies on October 3, 2014, at 8:32:00
The paperwork is going...mediation will be next, and we won't have to be in the same room. I have now become triggered to the point of being unable to be in the vicinity of where we lived. I narrowly missed him at the pharmacy the other day, and started to cry and shake. Traumatised by trauma. :-(
My lawyer had wanted me to work on realising as much profit from the sale of our business inventory as possible, but it distresses me too much to have to go back there, even if the home is empty. My therapist announced it not worth any amount of money to try to do it, so I am quite relieved to put it behind me. Walking away from memories good and bad are necessary for me to go forward.
As will eventually relocating to another part of the country. This is the longest I have lived anywhere, and the most unhappiest I have been. I need four seasons to thrive. I am making an exploratory trip far from here and will keep an open mind. No running this time, but a deliberate decision, made with hope and determination.
My local friends watching my process are calling me Brave and Strong. I am just doing what feels necessary and right. I have dropped the fear and the story about it.
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