Posted by alexandra_k on June 23, 2013, at 16:25:17
In reply to Re: It's time..., posted by alexandra_k on June 22, 2013, at 21:23:15
meh.
i get two shots at it.
so that means one shot of me being me.
then once more again if i need to figure out a compromise.
no point getting hung up on trying to figure out what i think they want without letting them see me first.
'cause i'm not that bad.
ahaha.the thesis is turning out to be a real pain in the *ss.
http://www.phdcomics.com/comics.php?f=1570
sigh.
well... not quite that bad... but who wants to read it. i mean... really...
and so i think that it is sh*t and have this compelling urge to start again
and again and again
making it different but not necessarily better.the thing to do...
is to be all like 'okay, i'll submit this - okay?'
at which point they HAVE to read it (to yay or nay that)
and tell me why the hell not if the answer is not
and they have pride since i'll be all like 'and thanks to my wonderful advisors' and so on...
so they won't let me submit utter sh*t.
but they also won't really read it before then.but I HAVE to finish. just... because. because of all the freaking people in the world who got herded through in 3 years and their advisors wrote most of it for them and they get to be Dr. so i'm stuffed if i'm not going to be Dr.
but my supervisor is notoriously hands off... which is why he's so good... because he actually gets on with his own work. sigh. like how the temptation (when teaching) is to spend all your time on that... helping first year psychology majors improve their essay on Descartes...
and the point is that on the way the point was lost.
for now that is what i tell myself: if i don't manage to focus on finishing... just doing what i need to do to be allowed to submit... then what makes me different from the security guards who are so focused on protecting property that they chase everyone off campus? from the librarians who are so focused on making the library look tidy that they disturb people trying to read? who are so focused on making the library look welcoming that they set up group work desks and group study rooms to the point where it isn't quiet enough for focused reading? from the academics who are so focused on making the hallways look tidy that they disturb people trying to work? who are so focused on hierarchy's that the people who don't need offices (because they are incapable of working independently) have them while those who do (because they need silence to work) have to try and find quiet corners of the halls?
that is what you get when you try and turn a tech into a uni... and around 2/3rd of the lecturers STILL not having their PhD's done (despite other people pretty much working full time to do them for them) and a whole lot of envy that a first year might complete faster than them...
ffs.
yes people.
that is what academia is about.
totally.
you f*ck*ng nailed it.
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