Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on August 21, 2011, at 22:26:43
In reply to Re: this post is from 2006 on moving out, posted by Solstice on August 21, 2011, at 12:07:56
I have to say I am very impressed with your response. I didnt get what I wanted but I got something better in return. I really have alot of respect for you solstice. You know many people have told me to go do these things that you have recommended to me for a better life. I just never listened to them and that's why my life isnt where I want it. You know I have alot of thoughts that I don't need to volunteer because its not benefiting anything. No Paycheck. But something you said really changed my view about it. You said people will appriciate the work you do and they will absolutly love you for it. I could live with that over a pay check. I always am seeking love in people, or having their approval. I don't want to disappoint you or make you sad I didnt listen to your advice. See 24/7 I live with thoughts of narcotics that would change the way I feel and that is at work and it would bother me when I'm volentering BUT I think im understanding what your saying. To devote everything to my passion and forget my drug wanting. You know I would love to absolutly forget about all the drugs that I think about I want it out of my mind. It makes me miserable. I have no dealer. I don't know where to get a dealer either but let's not think I'm thinking about that.
I go to NA meetings and they have tons of positions to apply for non paying work. I will have to look into things to volenteer for but one more thing. You said something about watering the addict. See I think I am looking for something I need but i have the "drug addict" label on me when i told everyone and its like when you need water your get thirsty and its very miserable not having it when you need it. That's the exact thing with stimulants. I have to tell people they are helpful to me. Anyways, I will start looking at open positions but the main thing im looking for is a place to work. I've got to move soon. But listen thank you so much for your advice.
regards,
Matt
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