Posted by floatingbridge on May 23, 2011, at 11:32:11
In reply to Re: vacation anxiety, posted by Dinah on May 23, 2011, at 7:19:43
Hi Dinah,
I think it's poor timing for me (on top of my usual resistance to going somewhere new; similarly, once I get somewhere, I enjoy myself). I still am going up and down on meds, and on top of this, I have two pairs of canaries on eggs. I know one pair will hatch certainly by next week. The nestlings need all sorts of
care--they fall out, need to be warmed, feed, replaced in the nest. They can only be banded w/in a certain window. Unbanded birds cannot compete in song contests.I really would love them to go and leave me home--it's been an absolute year of uphill and I will be mostly lying in the
room or, I don't know, dragging down to a beach, hopefully near where we stay.My husband says, oh yes, you just can go
rest. Sigh.I would love to stay home by myself
knowing they were out exploring. I am in a solitude deficit. And, really, I worry that the activity will set me back :(I worry too much. It's true that some days a trip to the small market near our house is all I can muster. Then, one day
I can go swimming.My recovery feels so shakey.
Anyways, my husband did what he always did--insisted and blew up, only to calm down leaving me still rattled. He's not beastly-- the opposite. Just worn down.
It's just bad timing. Because of my depression plus now fibromyalgia, he says it's always going to be bad timing.
I'm just saying, really does it have to be now? Hawaii will be there next month.On top of this all, my efforts have been getting my son assessments and a placement in a school. These are the last few weeks for my son to shadow schools. He is testing as highly intelligent and dyslexic. He is also showing a hearing delay. The education specialist and neuro psychologist say all this is absolutely treatable with the proper teaching methods. I just eat up lots of emotional energy about this. There's a
school I love that I think he'll love, and
the specialist spoke to theirs, and they have everything in place to work for him.... Maybe they'll accept him tomorrow or so after his shadow day. God knows how long I'll have to wait to hear.This is just going to read like a big dump. I'm sorry Dinah. At any rate, I'm going. Will find someone (who!) to care for my birdies. My son, well I just hope I have something in jand before I go.
I am a worry wart :( I'll come back and post how wonderful everything is :-/
Thanks for asking. I like your version of a vacation :)
* and whoever gazes at the stars will never again be quite alone...
c-ptsd & attendant health concerns
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