Sad, sad, sad, sad

Posted by Maxime on January 3, 2011, at 2:20:22

It is just past three in the morning. I've been a awake for hours worrying. Worrying mostly about my future. One that I really haven't got. I am so alone. I don't have any great memories of anything except for childhood. I am greateful I at least had that.
But you know how old people live their memories over and over because they forget the present, or want to forget the present, I won't have any memories that I will want to remember. And what about when I get old and sick, I won't have a husband to help take care of me, or for me to take of him. Even when my mom dies I will have no one, because based on past behaviour, my brother will do nothing to help me. I want a true partner. Two people who love each other so much that they would do anything for that other person. Grab tge moon if they had to.
It's not that I always need someone to help me because I do do a lot on my own. But I am tired of being on my own. Tired of it. I never have a enough money to do anything because I don't earn much. So I never really have the chance to meet anyone new.
I wish I knew what to do. I wish I felt healthy.
I have been crying for hours now and I can't stop.
As long as the world shall last there will be wrongs, and if no man objected and no man rebelled, those wrongs would last forever. ~Clarence Darrow~

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