Posted by PartlyCloudy on July 10, 2010, at 15:32:48
In reply to Re: ???, posted by cass on July 10, 2010, at 14:16:42
> Hi PC!
> Thanks for the reply! My therapist has not been so straightforward with me in the past. He's been more confrontational lately. However, I am the one who brought up the drinking, not him. I drink hard liquor at home by myself lately. I guess it's not a good sign. I'm truly not sure if I can stop or not because I haven't made any concerted effort.
> I wish my hard-wiring would change, and I could be strong enough to handle my life. I was able to do with help, with my husband.I was sure I was hard wired too - I come from many generations of career drinkers. I had confessed to my T that I wasn't able to cobble together more than several weeks at a time of sobriety, and that the 12 step meetings I had gone to (SO many times and in so many places - what a failure I felt) just reinforced my conviction that I wouldn't be able to do it.
I believe that everyone has their own path to take, and that there is no one answer to this big life puzzle. I ended up with a combination of medication (Campral), outpatient treatment, and ongoing therapy to get to my success.
The reason I make it a focal point of my posts to you, though, is that for me it seemed to be the keystone for so much development for me. It's hard to forge good interpersonal relationships when you feel guilt and shame as part of your own makeup, as I did.
It might be a starting point for you.
pc
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