Posted by Fivefires on August 13, 2009, at 12:46:46
In reply to Re: Think my namesake's tragedy is mine too??, posted by manic666 on August 13, 2009, at 3:04:46
I don't think she is knowingly doing it, but m is taking everything I love away. Told me d/f didn't love me as much as I thought, but that he just had extra time on his hands ... blows my whole 'who am I?' away! It can't be true. We talked about it; he and I. I still mourn his passing now 5yrs later. Like she and others kindred, I was w/ him. But now she is taking this; I loved him so very much and thought it was mutual :((((((((( (?)
Then more, more people, more places, and things, either taken from me or not given to me.
It's like punishment.
I never ever would knowingly do her harm. I've tried to talk w/ her about it, and cannot get through! She always, always, says I am imagining it. Everything I see is wrong?? My feelings too? Impossible the latter. She would say it must be a mistake or it is my imagination or they would never do that, always putting a hurt done to me, back on me.
Last saw, mission accomplished. It was to come betw I and one I loved, a chamelion, wonderful to lies, maybe not good, but now I'm empty. He is gone forever.
Two loves, two men, I loved them, but she made sure we were parted, in memory, and in life. She cannot see what she is doing. I give her the benefit of the doubt. But don't we want to know the truth? Are some people just not capable of it? I tried to help her see what she was doing to me, but she'd cut me off. Maybe she truly hates me.
So here I am, I guess as she wanted, completely without the man I loved, transportation, limited funds, and maybe soon I'll be on the streets, like imprisoned and awaiting final sentence.
The man I loved was either man** or a*h* and for the sake of a school system on Ritalin. Then when out of school, taken off. But, I say, what about him? So he turned to illicits. I can see where an illicit would replace that Ritalin used to make the job easier for a school.
This is what she doesn't like in me, that I can see the gray. All is black and white for her. For me there is so many colors. The law says no excuse accepted, but if it is 'a reason', shouldn't we be allowed to be the judge of this?
Yep .. that's some of the outlaw in me. I thought I would expound on what is currently happening Phillipa.
tks all, 5f
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