Posted by Deneb on July 25, 2009, at 12:22:03
In reply to Re: One provocative question after another » Deneb, posted by Tabitha on July 25, 2009, at 11:36:39
> I've been confused by your intent with these topics, too. Do you really not understand the risks of mixing alcohol & drugs with meds, and of using alcohol & drugs when you already tend to have suicidal impulses? It's almost difficult to believe you'd need someone to explain that to you, given the amount of time you spend on psych med support groups and the amount of reading you do. You've read the archives about the suicides here, and I think you'll notice they involved people struggling with meds & substance abuse.
No, I didn't think there was anything to risk really with alcohol. I just needed to be careful not to drink too much or else I might get addicted or something. I never thought about it being dangerous because of suicide. I'm not suicidal so I am fine. Those people who committed suicide were probably out of control with drugs. I'm not. I only ever drink a max of 2 drinks a day.
> So when I see you say "I think I'll take up drinking", or "I think I'll use some MJ", etc, it's hard to believe you are not aware of the reaction you'll get from folks. The reaction is naturally "Oh, no! That's so dangerous! I have to convince her not to do that!" And several people jump in with that type of reply.
Well I am drinking now, but it is responsible. I'm only drinking at night and at
most 2 drinks a night. Practically everyone drinks, even Dr. Bob. It's safe as long as you're responsible about it. I also believe MJ is a safe drug. I've read that no one has died from smoking pot. Besides, I don't even have access to MJ, just legal herbs to vaporize. The legal herbs are 100% legal. No one needs to convince me not to do anything.
> Now there's nothing wrong with that, in fact that's what the board is here for. But when it's repeated over and over, it starts to feel like it's, well, a game or something? I'll answer one, then come back, all worried, to see what you've decided to do. Then you always answer with "it's ok everyone, I won't do it". A bit later, it's another variant of the same. So I feel sort of suckered by the whole thing, like I got hooked in to reacting with worry & caring for something that wasn't really real.
Sorry it feels that way. I don't intend to do this. :-(
> Now I understand from your perspective, maybe you think you're just asking an innocent question. But it doesn't feel that way from my side. And I'd think from the reactions you get, you'd start to understand that these questions are provoking a pretty strong reaction in folks, and they can be perceived as manipulations or threats.
> I would guess that the underlying motivation here isn't really to scare & upset people. I assume it's just your way of getting attention. It works, and you always get quite a few replies. The problem is, over time people get burnt out on having their panic buttons pushed.
I just like sharing my life with the world. It is nice when people read my posts. I don't mean to upset people. There is no need to panic.
I'm sorry. I thought I was really doing well. I wasn't mentioning wanting to die or anything. Maybe I just really don't get it.