Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on June 30, 2009, at 7:10:41
In reply to Do good people use other people?, posted by HyperFocus on June 30, 2009, at 2:06:10
In my case, I don't have close friends at all. I am aqaianted with people, and try to get a laugh, from being my own self, yet...there are diffrent sides of me. There is a hurt, angry, hilarious in many ways, a strong image, a childhood memory lost in time, a bit crazy side that manifests when, the ego is tired of being who it is.
Deneb, i've joked with her, yet....Racer, in the past it was a diffrent matter (more intense in relationship with just helping, yet she cared the most in a indirect way) She didnt know what earthquake was going on, here. I couldnt explain it all to her, sometimes I attacked back, when I was prompted "Your a bad person", usally I attacked pretty hard, because what aspect is being implied? the past was the past. I mean, have you ever "been" placed in a place to be attacked? Not implying to anyone, yet in the past that became a 2nd nature, like a "ding", alright fellas, what's the deal? do yall sit around and talk trash, all the time? that's a light example.
What are you saying, as in using "people as puppet's?" for manipulation, or control, to get a thrill out of them, yet the real "manipulator" is the person trigger them to do something, there unaware. That's usally, not a friend, they smile, tap on you on the back, and say "your good sport". Believe me, that's the only thing they think of themselves inside, of their own nature.
Alot of times, here, I've made jokes out of not the poster, the situation, or just the....moment of laughter, and things click click click! it all bundles up into "dynamic rotation" of humor. Say...there is a poster, that I've gotten along with, something's are quite funny about that poster, yet i have my own issues. Yet inside, sometimes I want to be a friend to that person, in my own deepself, not the outer stimulation I give, but it can't be supported because that person inside is still "unstable", "hurt", "doenst know how to maintain a relationship, maybe they where isolated from the world young, got on people's nerves, so forth" not for the thrill of joking with something they have trouble with, but, at the same time, I want them, to see the humor, and laugh at it to make them feel better. Alot! of times in the past, this was taken wrong. Gotta a bad rap. Had to re-do personality. Breakdown, then build up another person. Like a city, falling, rebuild it, better for the next hit.
First thing, It's misunderstanding, or It's flat out, people "effin" with someone, excuse for the explicit content. That is something diffrent, that's taking atvantage of, to get power to themself, through laughing at someone, to make their ego bigger. Seen it, been throught it, tore down my old image, and i rebuilt, about 3 times in 4 years.
Alot of times, for me, it's the knowing of impending rejection, it happens! so you have accept it, move on. Rotate, because the "constant" knowing of that, is going to lead to "death". Anyone who sit's there and watches a person suffer, is sick. Rather, joking, yet, maybe there not aware, this joke is trying to stimulate them to feel better, or laugh at me, to get them out of a bad state.
That's my say so.
rj
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