Posted by verne on May 4, 2009, at 3:26:17
Let me explain: phone calls, emails, and even winks are painful for me. I'm in constant emotional pain. I love seeing my granddaughter, set my house up for her, sober six months. But now it's gone to h*ll. Usual mother "gatekeeping" and sheer hate from the son-in-law.
Gave up, started drinking, was told it was "all my fault", that I had "brought it on myself". That hurt. I hadn't done anything but annoy my son-in-law and it turned into this. I went through the same negative propaganda with my ex-wife and it destroyed me. Eventually I even got custody of my daugther - but guess what, after the lawyers and our friendly judicial system I WAS DESTROYED.
So DeJaVu all over again. I'm so done with this. I'm young enough that maybe I can escape to some lake front cabin - and of course the spiritual thing which requires complete rebirth.
I don't want to wake up, why should I?
I'm normal weight, good looking, strong, even "strappingly", little old, vain, and it goes down hill from there. My use of "strappingly" should have been a clue.
poster:verne
thread:894179
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