Posted by Deneb on December 17, 2007, at 9:04:38
I saw the bus coming so I ran for it and the bus waited for me.
The bus driver said, "You're Welcome". That's when I realized I didn't say Thank-you. I'm just not very good at social situations.
Then for the whole bus ride I felt bad about it. So then when he got to my stop I got up the courage to apologize for not saying, "Thank-you" to the bus driver. Only it wasn't my stop yet. Because of my ruminations I didn't realize this bus went downtown. I was going downtown.
So then I got back on the bus. Then when the next stop was my Uni, I went to apologize again and I started crying.
Anyways, right now I'm waiting for my pdoc appointment at 10:30 am and I'm still crying.
I was wandering a bit for a while after I got off the bus. Didn't know what I was doing or where I was going.
I'm not normal.
Now I'm going to think about this all day, maybe more than a day.
I hate this. In the past this is the time where I would want to die.
I'm better now in that I don't want to die, I just want to disappear.
I don't know how to get over this. I'm just going to have to wait to forget this.