Posted by yxibow on November 26, 2007, at 5:34:03 [reposted on November 27, 2007, at 20:52:26 | original URL]
In reply to I am the most depressed and anxious person here, posted by your#1fan on November 25, 2007, at 23:07:28
> Ladies and Gentlemen
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> I have situations that are causing this. But i dont know why i get so terribly depressed at a certain time.
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> I cant tell you the amount of thought and anxiety that i go through everyday, plus the depression with it. Oh god, you just think im posting this. Im just posting a quick post because i dont know how to describe it.
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> Why does all this happen to me? why me? am i irresponsible? i used not be not but now im on the edge of not.
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> I mean, im scared of whats going to happen, whats going to happen at the doctor? he thinks im a bit nuerotic and puts me on some heavy drug? by the way i have a fear ill call him a million times, LAST week i started calling the office and talked to the nurse and updated him on how my day went...if i lost my keys...class...friends...my life. There just saying hang in there until your next appoinment.
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> Im afriad its a self profiling profecy. Im scared you folks! im scared of failure, of losing control...wait i dont have any control...whats to lose? i cant deal with reality.
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> I tell ya i cant! its too much, i think i was sheltered a bit too much and the world i cant fit into it! i have phobias, and no one here. Or people that used to post...dont post anymore.
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> I tell you i have maybe scared off some people thinking im nuerotic. I thought for a period of time i was the #1 living american guy. Well maybe not that. But folks, i cant take much more. And im not going to let myself fall apart.
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> When i get depressed, my face is mashed into a pillow with my eyes squenched, on the bed. Its terrible, i hate the feeling.
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> This is too much....is there anyone that understands or gives anything even reading this? i hate my life! god.
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> im sorry im not a fan of myself.
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It doesn't sound like you're "neurotic" although a slight amount of self-control which I'm about to describe may give you relief.
Have you ever tried deep breathing excercises. Self-rationalization for even an hour that you're more likely to be hit by a meteor.
Now for the clencher -- I think it sounds like in my unqualified medical opinion that you have comorbid OCD about your psychiatric condition and the medications that you might need to take to feel better. It does not serve well and I resonate with the concept because I do the same thing. Luvox is rather helpful and underused if you don't have side effects that stop you, Paxil equally although it can give you some degree of weight gain. These would allow you to get a handle on worrying about worrying 16 hours a day and calling a doctor who has other patients about every aspect of every thing. (My doctor decided that since I have a rather bad case and he was getting a little bit wary he kept a charge record for the calls)
And by the way, unless you have an a** for a doctor -- you're a voluntary outpatient -- you aren't "put" on a medication, it isn't poison (I'm not going to get into anti-psychiatry discussions about terrible side effects of certain medications because that's not productive and I'm not really interested.. anyhow), it is there to help you if you are given informed consent, that is you consent to take a medication that hopefully is a collaborative effort and you're informed of any major side effects.
I, who have gone through years of Seroquel, side effects, neurological condition despite, would also recommend a small dose of a low potency atypical until you can get a handle on the situation. But then I don't know your exact diagnosis.Maybe Luvox alone, around 300-450mg divided during the day, would help enough, plus an occasional sprinkle of Klonopin and/or Xanax or Neurontin at really bad moments but not consistently both because of habituation (except the Neurontin, it would just stop being sedating) and your idiopathic depression. And who knows, maybe the Luvox would also help your depression.
I sympathize with this sort of situation but it really does sound like your worries have worries and this sounds like a sort of classic form of OCD.
I hope that helps
-- Jay
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