Posted by Racer on October 19, 2007, at 14:10:43 [reposted on October 20, 2007, at 0:38:09 | original URL]
In reply to Why not end it?, posted by Maxime on October 18, 2007, at 19:35:39
I don't know. I'm right there with you right now, and it's a question I'm asking myself, too.
So far, my only answer is "curiosity." I wonder what comes next? That, and I have classic melancholic depression, so I get to feeling a bit better at night. For some reason, it doesn't seem right to do anything in daylight, and by the time it's dark, I'm often feeling less dire than earlier in the day. Right now, at noon, I think that's a bad thing. I know that I felt better once, and was glad I hadn't done what I'd had in mind. Right now, at noon, I don't feel that way. Later tonight, I probably will feel that way again. Not "well," but not *as* bad as I do now.
I can't answer your question. I'm glad you're here, and wish you didn't feel this bad. The only suggestion I have for you, which is certainly not a solution, is therapy. I can't say that I am better for it, but I find the time I spend with my therapist rather comforting. Even though I often dread going, and even though I very often hate it while I'm there, it's also comforting for me. I know that *I'm* better for it, although I can't say my life is better for it. If therapy is an option for you, or if you can make therapy an option for you, it's worth trying it again. The key, of course, is to find a good fit, which is also the hardest part of it. Harder, I think, to find a therapist who clicks, than to find a medication that helps.
As for medications, you're more complex than I am, so I will remain silent on that count. I think you know more about the meds than I do, so I don't think I can add anything there.
xoxo
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