Posted by Kath on February 26, 2007, at 16:22:06
Hi All,
Why can't life be nice? *****moan****
I feel quite unsettled, moaney, complainy, scared.
Son's GF went back to Vancouver a week ago. Had planned to fly back, then changed to bus-ing back on Saturday with friend from out there. (A fellow 'meth' using 'friend')
So they are still there. My son is beside himself with worry. He's been drinking beer to cope...and is up to a pack a day smoking.
I spoke with her last Friday & she sounded fine. Just spoke with her a while ago & she sounds out-of-it. Sort of drawly. Very vague about coming back.
SO - I assume she's using. It 'reads' like a soap opera. I saw how she looked when they arrived back here after using for only 2 months. I am afraid for her. But mostly I'm upset for my son. He is SOOOOOO stressed out, which is one of the worst things for psychosis. I am actually pretty MAD. Why did she have to go out there to 'get their things'. I guess she wanted to see her friend. I am really, really upset.
I feel helpless (and am).
I told her that I love her & care about her & want her back here SAFE. I said I could tell that things were happening. That I was here to help her.
What more can I do? If somebody asked me that, I'd say, "NOTHING".
But I don't WANT to not be able to do anything!
I do NOT want this to be real. I have visions of her all strung-out; skinny; unhealthy etc. My mind fast-forwards.
I don't want to have to have stuff keep happening. I want things to be progressing forward without PROBLEMS keeping interrupting. I am trying to do the mindfulness; to do EFT-tapping, which ususally helps. When I get feeling like this, I just want to be numb or asleep or something. But when you're asleep you have to wake up.
Kath
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