Posted by Llurpsie_Noodle on February 21, 2007, at 19:42:55
In reply to Snow, cold + broken toe » Larry Hoover, posted by Kath on February 18, 2007, at 20:22:33
This is a very interesting dialog- I think that insight meditation (Vipassana) which is similar to the mindfulness meditation that you are speaking may have been one of the precipitating causes of my depression last year.
I was practicing very regularly for a few months, and I think my mind settled enough that there were some lapses in my ordinary defense mechanisms and bad stuff started bubbling up from my self-consciousness. I tried my best to stuff it all into the ugly place it came from, but it still leaks out here and there.
For a while I couldn't sit because my meds were making me too twitchy. Now I've switched anti-psychotics, and I don't seem to have the twitchies very much.
It's definitely a practice. The more one practices the more natural it feels. The more one is able to integrate that particular state of mind and coping mechanism into one's everyday experience. I just wanted to give myself a pep talk because I've been avoiding meditation for about 6 mos now. I think I'm ready to give it another shot, though.
For me, my struggle is to meditate without self-hypnotizing myself into a dissociated trance. That's not so good for me. If I'm ready for it (am I ready?) I can learn to listen to my body again and ask it what I've been feeling lately. Some trepidation.
practice makes practiced.