Posted by rjlockhart on February 13, 2007, at 20:05:06
Hello its me again.
Well first thing i have always thought that some people where, well misunderstnad me. Today at work,. I work at the GAP. There is so much saracasm, well before we open the store. On the stock today, i told some one that i would be there friend but they said i had to pay them $200 down fee, plus a 20 weeks fee, and we could go out and party. I concented. I am saving up.
First of all im sucking up to this person. To just be my friend, danmit what have i done, i actaully told him i would give him my next paycheck. I dont know how to realte to him thats why im paying him. 200 dollers down and then 20 dollers weekly.
Danmmit at i am so annoying, i just dont know what to say, i just say stuff that randomly comes to my mind. People always say "Matt stay away from appliences, be sure"
Well i am intense at work because i am forcing myself on people. Too much, i feel rejected inside, i want to just, i came home and just laid down for 4 hours almost starting having a emotional breakdown because this has been this way my whole life.
This is like a nightmare happening. I am forced to deal with this stuff everyday. I try to be the star at work but it doenst work, i turn up being looked as someone who would run but forget to jump onto a rock boulder.
I need some support here. Oh god, i cant take this.