Posted by TexasChic on June 28, 2006, at 18:34:34
In reply to Re: !@#$%^ » TexasChic, posted by MidnightBlue on June 28, 2006, at 14:33:18
Yeah, but there were extenuating circumstances in this instance. To be fair and stop beating myself up, I had pretty adequate reason to believe what I did. Really the confusing part is how he could have said the things he did to me and have it mean something entirely different.
Thanks for the pep talk though! I know I need to do those things. I really want to start new at this job, which is why I'm trying to get things organized. I have a problem with clutter and hoarding though, and its just gotten more out of control lately than ever before. So that's what I'm trying to tackle here. Its an OCD thing apparently.
I've seen some pictures on the internet that actually make me feel pretty good about my mess, but these are situations where its gone on years and years. Mine has evolved over several months. Nothing is gross or anything, but clothes, bags, bills, coffee cups, soft drink cups, water bottles, boxes stuff came in, just things like that are all over the place.
Actually, the kitchen IS kind of gross because there's some dirty dishes (pre-dishwasher rinsed) that have been sitting there forever. I've never had bugs or anything, so its more just appearance gross than anything else. But all that is covered by the trash (empty food containers, juice bottles, vodka bottles, ect), so that just makes it even worse.
I HAVE started and made some leeway (I've carried three bags of trash out so far), I just haven't moved into high gear yet, which I know I can do because I've done it before. I've just gotten so sedentary lately. I know its because of depression and the stress of all the crazy stuff at work. I'm just having a hard time snapping out of it. Plus, once the mess gets so bad, it seems impossible. But I know to start with small tasks and stuff like that. I know what I need to do, I'm just not doing it.
So-o-o-o , that being said, I really need to take the break from here I said I would, and get busy. Its easy to use this place as a way to put things off. Okay, its what, Wednesday? I'm going to make a point to stay away from here and not even look at this site until Friday (that sounds more doable than staying away until I'm done). Unless of course its some major thing, like when I found out I got the job. So if I come on here, tell me to go away! Okay, here it goes. Talk to yall Friday!
-T
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