Posted by Deneb on May 22, 2006, at 20:57:42
In reply to Re:The workshop *may trigger* your essay » Deneb, posted by madeline on May 22, 2006, at 19:57:40
Madeline, I did cry, at the workshop. Lar hugged me while I cried.
I ruined Dr. Bob's workshop. I asked a stupid question that everyone knew and I totally ruined Dr. Bob's presentation. It was horrible. I was only supposed to introduce myself, but then for some strange reason, I just read and read from my stupid paper. It was like I wasn't there anymore. I didn't know what to say so I just read, but I wrote too much and it was too long. It was a total disaster. What I wrote was soooo embarrassing too. I wrote that last night like it was a post or something. Have I no shame?
Dr. Bob, I'm extremely sorry about ruining your presentation. I ruined your presentation didn't I? No, you wouldn't say I did because that might not be civil. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I ruined your presentation. I don't know what came over me. I told you I was going to ruin your presentation. I was right. My worst fears have come true. I don't deserve to you know what. :-(
I don't know what came over me, I do the stupidest things. Why did I write such personal stuff? What was I thinking? Really...what in the hell was I thinking, to write the truth, the whole truth? I'm really sorry if I embarrassed you Dr. Bob. I don't know what came over me. I don't know why I did what I did. I'm in my own little world, I don't listen to what goes on around me. I'm sorry.
This would be a good time for me to switch lives, if that is how things work. Unfortunately, there is no way to know for sure what happens.
Dr. Bob, please tell me the truth. Did I ruin your presentation?
Aaahhh! I can't stand it! I'm mortified. I don't know what to do. I feel like saying all sorts of uncivil, triggering things. Aaaaahhh!
What do I do??? I feel horrible.
Deneb*
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