Posted by TexasChic on May 6, 2006, at 17:27:01
In reply to Good stuff, posted by TexasChic on May 6, 2006, at 17:07:12
(I felt like my first post was running too long, and was kind of two different subjects, so I split it up. Hence the good stuff, bad stuff.)
Tommorow I'm supposed to meet up with some family members for lunch. My brother is moving to Kentucky and wants to get together one last time. My uncle has a house he can stay in that he'll let him do repairs on in lieu of rent, and he's going to show him how to take care of hogs. Now you've got to realize, we may be southern, but we're city people, so he might as well be going to outer space. But he has had alot of bad things happen at once. His car gave up the ghost, the next day he got fired, and my mom sold my Grandmother's house so he had nowhere to live. It was just one thing after another. So I can see how this is a good opportunity to clear his head and reevaluate his life. He'll be away from all his co-dependent relationships, and maybe will learn that he can rely on himself. Plus he'll be doing entirely physical work, which I don't think he's ever done before, and should be good for him.
The downside is, he's bipolar and doesn't take meds anymore. So I'm kind of worried about him going out there and being so isolated. Plus, of course, he's never been that far away before, and I always worry about him. He's my little brother, and I've always tried to look out for him. So I just don't really know how to feel about the whole thing. I know at some point this will hit me, its just happening so fast right now.
One last thing, I realized my Grandmother's birthday is tuesday. She passed away a year ago in June and its been really hard on me. I realized this as I was driving past her old house, when I was feeling depressed about the whole trying on clothes situation. I think I would have started bawling, but it started raining really hard and I could barely see, so I had to concentrate on driving.
So with that, all the crap at work, the upcoming interview, and my brother moving, I've just got too much sh*t bouncing around in my head!