Posted by NikkiT2 on January 18, 2006, at 6:50:25
In reply to slipping so fast, posted by NikkiT2 on January 17, 2006, at 16:39:58
Thanks everyone.. what would we do with out babble huh?
I can't believe how strong the urge to self harm was last night.. it took me SO by shock.
I've been to see a different GP this morning.. I know my normal one is a complete b*tch, so I went and saw the lovely male one at my practice. He was wonderful.. he hugged me when I cried, and said he was exactly the same when he gave up last year. Said he kept bursting into tears during consultations!! He was just lovely.. and I do feel much better for it.
he said to treat myself well, sleep when I need to, and self soothe..
Strangely - I did get my "Borderline Personality Disorder Skills Manual" out this morning. I'm so bad at meditation, but I spoke with one of my bosses this morning (a DBT therapist) and she is going to do some meditation with me tomorrow, as well as some other skills work.
I will sruvve this.. the rational brain knows that, but when the irrational brain takes over, its so hard to beat it back.
Thankyou.. so so much..
*tight hugs for those that like them, and firm handshakes for those that don't*